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Seldom did I think of myself during my prayers except when I was in extreme anguish, as in [[Paper 182 - In Gethsemane|the Garden]] when I faced the agony of [[crucifixion]]. Rather, were my conversations with [[God]] mostly about [[Paper 139 - The Twelve Apostles|my apostles]], my [[friends]]. For even with my [[human]] [[mind]] I could see where their weaknesses lay, as well as understand their [[unique]] strengths. I knew I did my best effort to teach them, and not just with [[words]], but by my example as well. But, beyond those efforts I felt the need to pray, not because my Father was grudging in His [[mercy]], but because prayer actually does produce an effect for the other [[person]].

Seldom did I think of myself during my prayers except when I was in extreme anguish, as in [[Paper 182 - In Gethsemane|the Garden]] when I faced the agony of [[crucifixion]]. Rather, were my conversations with [[God]] mostly about [[Paper 139 - The Twelve Apostles|my apostles]], my [[friends]]. For even with my [[human]] [[mind]] I could see where their weaknesses lay, as well as understand their [[unique]] strengths. I knew I did my best effort to teach them, and not just with [[words]], but by my example as well. But, beyond those efforts I felt the need to pray, not because my Father was grudging in His [[mercy]], but because prayer actually does produce an effect for the other [[person]].

As I prayed for my different companions I would ask the Father to keep someone from collapsing in despair and listening to the whisperings of the [[animal]] nature, of the [[spirit]] [[poison]]s. I would ask for [[wisdom]] for my friends, that their minds could be expanded. My human [[nature]] yearned to influence them strongly, but my [[Divine]] nature instructed my human nature that I could not take their place and make their [[decisions]] for them. I, too, as a [[human being]], had to learn the lesson that I did not possess the magic wand that would abrogate their dignity status as [[free will]] [[creatures]]. I had to learn to leave them in the capable hands of my Father and my [http://www.urantia.org/cgi-bin/webglimpse/mfs/usr/local/www/data/papers?link=http://mercy.urantia.org/papers/paper7.html&file=/usr/local/www/data/papers/paper7.html&line=109#mfs Mother/Son] on [[Paradise]].

As I prayed for my different companions I would ask the Father to keep someone from collapsing in despair and listening to the whisperings of the [[animal]] nature, of the [[spirit]] [[poison]]s. I would ask for [[wisdom]] for my friends, that their minds could be expanded. My human [[nature]] yearned to influence them strongly, but my [[Divine]] nature instructed my human nature that I could not take their place and make their [[decisions]] for them. I, too, as a [[human being]], had to learn the lesson that I did not possess the magic wand that would abrogate their dignity status as [[free will]] [[creatures]]. I had to learn to leave them in the capable hands of my Father and my [https://www.urantia.org/cgi-bin/webglimpse/mfs/usr/local/www/data/papers?link=https://mercy.urantia.org/papers/paper7.html&file=/usr/local/www/data/papers/paper7.html&line=109#mfs Mother/Son] on [[Paradise]].

I know that you all struggle with this same difficulty, for you are human, too. When you think you know what is best for another you are moved to pray for that person, that they may see the [[light]], that they may recognize the way that they should go. Here we differ. Yes, I truly did see the way that they should go. But you do not! Often, you are close, if not correct. Still, it is not given to you that you can choose for another, once that [[person]] is endowed with an indwelling [[Mystery Monitor]].

I know that you all struggle with this same difficulty, for you are human, too. When you think you know what is best for another you are moved to pray for that person, that they may see the [[light]], that they may recognize the way that they should go. Here we differ. Yes, I truly did see the way that they should go. But you do not! Often, you are close, if not correct. Still, it is not given to you that you can choose for another, once that [[person]] is endowed with an indwelling [[Mystery Monitor]].

===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

Nancy: Michael, thank You for Your topic, tonight. I guess You are aware that I have been contemplating this very [[topic]] the last couple of days in particular, and my desire to re-establish more constant [[communication]] with my [[indwelling Adjuster]] and to receive the relief of not needing to be in charge of my own life. I am very tired. I have been realizing that part of my tiredness is because I have to resume control in response to becoming a [[professional]] person. I have been having difficulty [[balancing]] that trust like, breezy, [[new age]], VW bus driver that found it much easier to trust with the professional that I have become, who is surrounded with other professionals that have no tolerance for anything foo foo ([[laughter]]), and wanting to earn my legitimacy as a professional; and wanting to do a really good job! So my [[ego]] is in there! It has been much more difficult for me. I am so busy all the time, too. to stay in constant [[communion]]. I have just found it much more difficult. I have even taken on even the mind [[thinking]] of what I perceive the mind thinking to be of the people I interact with, which is almost an intolerance for foo fooness, silliness, stuff outside of the realm of "normal". Anybody who knows my [[history]] is probably in shock to hear this. But I am really tired and I really miss that relationship. I know that You are here to help me. I think of You as an example in Your huge endeavors in the undertaking of the [[universe]], as well as [http://www.nordan.daynal.org/wiki/index.php?title=The_Urantia_Text_-_Contents#Part_IV._The_Life_and_Teachings_of_Jesus Your life] on [[Urantia]]. I am really wishing I could be a whole lot more like You than I have been lately, forever, but definitely I feel like I have been regressing in [[spiritual]] ways, even as I have begun to excel [[professionally]]. I think I am done, for now.

Nancy: Michael, thank You for Your topic, tonight. I guess You are aware that I have been contemplating this very [[topic]] the last couple of days in particular, and my desire to re-establish more constant [[communication]] with my [[indwelling Adjuster]] and to receive the relief of not needing to be in charge of my own life. I am very tired. I have been realizing that part of my tiredness is because I have to resume control in response to becoming a [[professional]] person. I have been having difficulty [[balancing]] that trust like, breezy, [[new age]], VW bus driver that found it much easier to trust with the professional that I have become, who is surrounded with other professionals that have no tolerance for anything foo foo ([[laughter]]), and wanting to earn my legitimacy as a professional; and wanting to do a really good job! So my [[ego]] is in there! It has been much more difficult for me. I am so busy all the time, too. to stay in constant [[communion]]. I have just found it much more difficult. I have even taken on even the mind [[thinking]] of what I perceive the mind thinking to be of the people I interact with, which is almost an intolerance for foo fooness, silliness, stuff outside of the realm of "normal". Anybody who knows my [[history]] is probably in shock to hear this. But I am really tired and I really miss that relationship. I know that You are here to help me. I think of You as an example in Your huge endeavors in the undertaking of the [[universe]], as well as [https://nordan.daynal.org/wiki/index.php?title=The_Urantia_Text_-_Contents#Part_IV._The_Life_and_Teachings_of_Jesus Your life] on [[Urantia]]. I am really wishing I could be a whole lot more like You than I have been lately, forever, but definitely I feel like I have been regressing in [[spiritual]] ways, even as I have begun to excel [[professionally]]. I think I am done, for now.

Michael: Yes, my dear daughter. I know your [[heart]], for I dwell with you as well as your [[Thought Adjuster]], and being cognizant of the [[human condition|mortal condition]], because I actually lived it, I also understand your [[dilemma]]. What you need to learn is that the rest you seek will not be satisfied merely by inactivity, by sleep, or by recreation. You are not backslidden. You are not disapproved of. You are my lovely daughter! Let me comfort you when you and I converse, even as our Father will comfort you as you converse with Him, You are tired, and as I have said to others, I say to you, also, "Come to me and you will find rest for your soul. For my burden is light, and my yoke is easy". It is not a weight upon you, that I give. I give you my [[peace]], my dear.

Michael: Yes, my dear daughter. I know your [[heart]], for I dwell with you as well as your [[Thought Adjuster]], and being cognizant of the [[human condition|mortal condition]], because I actually lived it, I also understand your [[dilemma]]. What you need to learn is that the rest you seek will not be satisfied merely by inactivity, by sleep, or by recreation. You are not backslidden. You are not disapproved of. You are my lovely daughter! Let me comfort you when you and I converse, even as our Father will comfort you as you converse with Him, You are tired, and as I have said to others, I say to you, also, "Come to me and you will find rest for your soul. For my burden is light, and my yoke is easy". It is not a weight upon you, that I give. I give you my [[peace]], my dear.