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===Topic: ''Personal Session, Bestowal''===
===Group: [[N. Colorado TeaM]]===
==Facilitators==
===Teacher: [[Will]]===
===TR: [[JoiLin]]===
==Session==
===Opening===
Will: Greetings Little Mary, it is I, Will, she who loves you, here to help in anyway I can. Have you questions for me child?
Will: Greetings Little Mary, it is I, Will, she who loves you, here to help in anyway I can. Have you questions for me child?
===Dialogue===
1. Feeling like the rug has been pulled out from underneath
1. Feeling like the rug has been pulled out from underneath
Will: Yes, of course.
Will: Yes, of course.
2. Difference between psychics and intuitives
2. Difference between psychics and intuitives
Intuition is your connection with your Adjuster and being able to pick up on his signals which is a clearer, truer path than the other.
Intuition is your connection with your Adjuster and being able to pick up on his signals which is a clearer, truer path than the other.
3. How to develop intuitive communication with our Adjuster
3. How to develop intuitive communication with our Adjuster
Mary: How do we develop that intuitive communication or connection with our Adjusters?
Mary: How do we develop that intuitive communication or connection with our Adjusters?
The Father as you well know is with you always, sending you messages of love and support, and guidance, always. Yet for most mortals on this world of time, it is neigh onto near impossible to hear his voice through all the mindal chaos, clutter and noise. And so, it takes a concerted effort to calm the inner turmoil. For many it takes years, for the lucky few, the breakthrough comes sooner.
The Father as you well know is with you always, sending you messages of love and support, and guidance, always. Yet for most mortals on this world of time, it is neigh onto near impossible to hear his voice through all the mindal chaos, clutter and noise. And so, it takes a concerted effort to calm the inner turmoil. For many it takes years, for the lucky few, the breakthrough comes sooner.
4. Struggle between head and heart
4. Struggle between head and heart
Mary: Why, I mean based on what you just said, it makes no sense to me why my heart scares me to death and I depend on my mind. Even though my reasoning can be muddled and confused and . .. it's not my head that scares me it's the heart.
Mary: Why, I mean based on what you just said, it makes no sense to me why my heart scares me to death and I depend on my mind. Even though my reasoning can be muddled and confused and . .. it's not my head that scares me it's the heart.
Will: That's understood and yet it is in this direction that you will evolve toward. It is [tape unclear – possibly “through”] the mindal arena into the heart wherein the Father lives that you attempt to develop. You're walking into territory that is less understood by you and so of course it engenders some level of fear. You are still, human that you are, closely connected to your animal beginnings. And, it is this that causes confusion, fear and distrust. Only through quelling these spirit poisons will you find yourself in a place of peace and openhearted connection to the Father.
Will: That's understood and yet it is in this direction that you will evolve toward. It is [tape unclear – possibly “through”] the mindal arena into the heart wherein the Father lives that you attempt to develop. You're walking into territory that is less understood by you and so of course it engenders some level of fear. You are still, human that you are, closely connected to your animal beginnings. And, it is this that causes confusion, fear and distrust. Only through quelling these spirit poisons will you find yourself in a place of peace and openhearted connection to the Father.
5. Father’s Will vs. my will / wishful thinking
5. Father’s Will vs. my will / wishful thinking
Mary: I have a very hard time distinguishing between that gut, intuitive leading, that spirit prompting, and then I say it's wishful thinking. I have a very hard time knowing what's God's will and what's my will. My will of course I call wishful thinking. Can you help me to distinguish between the two? I sabotage myself. Anytime it seems to be something I want then I can't believe it's the Father's will, it must just be my desires. So I don't trust myself.
Mary: I have a very hard time distinguishing between that gut, intuitive leading, that spirit prompting, and then I say it's wishful thinking. I have a very hard time knowing what's God's will and what's my will. My will of course I call wishful thinking. Can you help me to distinguish between the two? I sabotage myself. Anytime it seems to be something I want then I can't believe it's the Father's will, it must just be my desires. So I don't trust myself.
Your prayer Little One of being given what you need rather than what you want is the opening of the heart's door that he requires in order to be able to more clearly lead you on the path of his choosing for you. This you have done. Recognize that this is so. Accept it on a conscious level as well as a heart level.
Your prayer Little One of being given what you need rather than what you want is the opening of the heart's door that he requires in order to be able to more clearly lead you on the path of his choosing for you. This you have done. Recognize that this is so. Accept it on a conscious level as well as a heart level.
6. Phrasing questions
6. Phrasing questions
Mary: Why do I hold back? Is it trust again?
Mary: Why do I hold back? Is it trust again?
Will: Perhaps.
Will: Perhaps.
Mary: There's a part of me that says if I don't carefully word my question, you won't answer.
Mary: There's a part of me that says if I don't carefully word my question, you won't answer.
Will: And, on some level that's certainly true.
Will: And, on some level that's certainly true.
Mary: (Laughing) That felt good! So my mind kicks in, instead of just blurting out what it is, I try and phrase it so that you can address it.
Mary: (Laughing) That felt good! So my mind kicks in, instead of just blurting out what it is, I try and phrase it so that you can address it.
Will: So if you ask a question that comes straight from your heart that I recognize as a question I may not answer for you, rephrase it. But go with the heart.
Will: So if you ask a question that comes straight from your heart that I recognize as a question I may not answer for you, rephrase it. But go with the heart.
7. Individuals that cross our path and more on faith
7. Individuals that cross our path and more on faith
Mary: Okay. I want to know what's with “S”. I feel like he was plunked right in my path.
Mary: Okay. I want to know what's with “S”. I feel like he was plunked right in my path.
Again, faith and trust will give you a sense of peace Little One if you can simply embrace it. I cannot, and if I could, would not, define for you the outcome of this relationship or any relationship in your life, for it would be unfair to all parties concerned were I to do that. Faith, again and again and again, faith, and more faith is what is required to live your life in that peaceful, gentle accepting place. You have a beginning but you have yet a long way to go.
Again, faith and trust will give you a sense of peace Little One if you can simply embrace it. I cannot, and if I could, would not, define for you the outcome of this relationship or any relationship in your life, for it would be unfair to all parties concerned were I to do that. Faith, again and again and again, faith, and more faith is what is required to live your life in that peaceful, gentle accepting place. You have a beginning but you have yet a long way to go.
8. Discussion regarding whether to stay in a marriage or divorce
8. Discussion regarding whether to stay in a marriage or divorce
Mary: Gosh, there's a pattern here that's scary. My first husband was like “T” in so many ways. He never showed love until I burned out. And then, as I start to pull away...
Mary: Gosh, there's a pattern here that's scary. My first husband was like “T” in so many ways. He never showed love until I burned out. And then, as I start to pull away...
Mary: But there have been times in my life where I have loved myself. And, there have been times where I have recognized a very deep need and chosen accordingly no matter how much it hurt.
Mary: But there have been times in my life where I have loved myself. And, there have been times where I have recognized a very deep need and chosen accordingly no matter how much it hurt.
Will: And did you see that as selfish?
Will: And did you see that as selfish?
Mary: As necessary selfishness. Necessary because you can kill off parts of yourself. You can neglect aspects and do lots of damage.
Mary: As necessary selfishness. Necessary because you can kill off parts of yourself. You can neglect aspects and do lots of damage.
Mary: It was a lot easier before I had children.
Mary: It was a lot easier before I had children.
Will: Of course it was.
Will: Of course it was.
Mary: Children change the whole dynamic. My choices affect more people.
Mary: Children change the whole dynamic. My choices affect more people.
Will: And yet, if you remain in a situation that is irreconcilable in your own mind and heart, there is no real love, no real nurturing, are you truly serving your children by remaining so? What would be the lesson that you would be teaching them?
Will: And yet, if you remain in a situation that is irreconcilable in your own mind and heart, there is no real love, no real nurturing, are you truly serving your children by remaining so? What would be the lesson that you would be teaching them?
Mary: I don't know. It's been pretty dysfunctional so far. But in spite of everything our children know that they are loved by both of us.
Mary: I don't know. It's been pretty dysfunctional so far. But in spite of everything our children know that they are loved by both of us.
Will: And they will continue to know that Mary.
Will: And they will continue to know that Mary.
Mary: I know.
Mary: I know.
Will: They will continue to be supported by that knowledge and that love regardless of where their future finds them, regardless of the circumstances. They know they are loved by both of their parents. That will not change.
Will: They will continue to be supported by that knowledge and that love regardless of where their future finds them, regardless of the circumstances. They know they are loved by both of their parents. That will not change.
Mary: This is true. I have no idea what they have formulated, what ideas and values they hold regarding relationships, marital relationships. My children have learned more through seeing my loving friendships than the relationship they have seen between their parents.
Mary: This is true. I have no idea what they have formulated, what ideas and values they hold regarding relationships, marital relationships. My children have learned more through seeing my loving friendships than the relationship they have seen between their parents.
Will: Yes.
Will: Yes.
Mary: And I regret that... but I was in a very unaware place.
Mary: And I regret that... but I was in a very unaware place.
Will: But you are no longer unaware.
Will: But you are no longer unaware.
Mary: This is true.
Mary: This is true.
Mary: But I do have a strong sense that now is not the time, that I'll know it.
Mary: But I do have a strong sense that now is not the time, that I'll know it.
Will: Then follow that.
Will: Then follow that.
Mary: And I am.
Mary: And I am.
Will: Here is where your faith and trust will support you through the times of indecision, the times that are filled with stress. But, remember always to allow yourself to be nurtured from within, Little Mary. Seek to strengthen that connection, to become strong, and the outpouring of the Father's love to you will be felt by you in the material world. It is not easy for anyone in this world for truly your world is more dysfunctional than not. And, it's the rare human that finds that connection without much, much work. You have never shied away from work and have truly never let go your commitment to the Father, so we have no fear that you are not up to the task.
Will: Here is where your faith and trust will support you through the times of indecision, the times that are filled with stress. But, remember always to allow yourself to be nurtured from within, Little Mary. Seek to strengthen that connection, to become strong, and the outpouring of the Father's love to you will be felt by you in the material world. It is not easy for anyone in this world for truly your world is more dysfunctional than not. And, it's the rare human that finds that connection without much, much work. You have never shied away from work and have truly never let go your commitment to the Father, so we have no fear that you are not up to the task.
9. More interested in personal session than hearing about Magisterial Son’s bestowal
9. More interested in personal session than hearing about Magisterial Son’s bestowal
Mary: Speaking of connections, I have a confession Will. Last Tuesday, something very important was going on. I think one of the Most Highs (Correct) was speaking about a bestowal Magisterial Son and I know I'm getting it on some level but part of me... I feel too wrapped up in myself - I wanted to hear you, Will. My attitude was negative and then indifferent toward the Teaching Mission and I really don't know that much about it. And, I don't know why I'm being drawn to it other than I love and trust JoiLin so much and I was in such personal crisis that I turned for help and you were there. And, I thank you. And, I'm very fond of you. I'm very appreciative.
Mary: Speaking of connections, I have a confession Will. Last Tuesday, something very important was going on. I think one of the Most Highs (Correct) was speaking about a bestowal Magisterial Son and I know I'm getting it on some level but part of me... I feel too wrapped up in myself - I wanted to hear you, Will. My attitude was negative and then indifferent toward the Teaching Mission and I really don't know that much about it. And, I don't know why I'm being drawn to it other than I love and trust JoiLin so much and I was in such personal crisis that I turned for help and you were there. And, I thank you. And, I'm very fond of you. I'm very appreciative.
Will: I know all of these things are true and I thank you deeply for your trust in both JoiLin and myself. And, Little Mary, do you not know that your love is reciprocated just as deeply if not more by me? I accept that as one of the highest compliments you could possibly pay me. And, have no fear that jealously is a part of my world for it is not. It was wholly understood by the Teacher that your heart connection was more clearly with me at the moment. And, you're correct, the message that was given lives within your heart on a deep level but the information is there, and will remain there, as it will remain within the hearts of all who were present on that evening.
Will: I know all of these things are true and I thank you deeply for your trust in both JoiLin and myself. And, Little Mary, do you not know that your love is reciprocated just as deeply if not more by me? I accept that as one of the highest compliments you could possibly pay me. And, have no fear that jealously is a part of my world for it is not. It was wholly understood by the Teacher that your heart connection was more clearly with me at the moment. And, you're correct, the message that was given lives within your heart on a deep level but the information is there, and will remain there, as it will remain within the hearts of all who were present on that evening.
10. Being pulled toward the Teaching Mission?
10. Being pulled toward the Teaching Mission?
Mary: Am I being pulled toward the Teaching Mission for a bigger purpose than I'm currently aware of?
Mary: Am I being pulled toward the Teaching Mission for a bigger purpose than I'm currently aware of?
Will: All who are being pulled toward the Teaching Mission are being pulled there for a greater purpose of course.
Will: All who are being pulled toward the Teaching Mission are being pulled there for a greater purpose of course.
Mary: Is it of value for me to be aware of this or...
Mary: Is it of value for me to be aware of this or...
Will: . ..to be aware of the greater purpose?
Will: . ..to be aware of the greater purpose?
Mary: Yes...
Mary: Yes...
Will: That will unfold in it's own time.
Will: That will unfold in it's own time.
Mary: So don't worry about it?
Mary: So don't worry about it?
Will: Correct.
Will: Correct.
Mary: Okay. That's nice. (Laugh) One less responsibility.
Mary: Okay. That's nice. (Laugh) One less responsibility.
11. Teachers and communicating / stillness
11. Teachers and communicating / stillness
Mary: Does every individual have a different Teacher?
Mary: Does every individual have a different Teacher?
Will: Correct. Every individual who seeks to have a personal Teacher has one.
Will: Correct. Every individual who seeks to have a personal Teacher has one.
Mary: So you're not a personal teacher, you're a group teacher?
Mary: So you're not a personal teacher, you're a group teacher?
Will: Correct.
Will: Correct.
Mary: Well, I want to be part of that group! But I could also have a personal Teacher?
Mary: Well, I want to be part of that group! But I could also have a personal Teacher?
Will: Correct. You do in fact have one.
Will: Correct. You do in fact have one.
Mary: Oh... Well now how do I connect with my personal Teacher?
Mary: Oh... Well now how do I connect with my personal Teacher?
Will: Through perseverance. (Okay) Through seeking the stillness as JoiLin has told you. (Okay) Use the hot pen method that oftentimes proves invaluable as a tool.
Will: Through perseverance. (Okay) Through seeking the stillness as JoiLin has told you. (Okay) Use the hot pen method that oftentimes proves invaluable as a tool.
Mary: Just sit down and write...
Mary: Just sit down and write...
Will: Correct. (Okay) The pages that you already write, were you to do it on a daily basis for the purpose of clearing your mind and allowing the possibility of teacher contact, would perhaps be the most viable path for you to take since it is a mechanism you have already chosen to use.
Will: Correct. (Okay) The pages that you already write, were you to do it on a daily basis for the purpose of clearing your mind and allowing the possibility of teacher contact, would perhaps be the most viable path for you to take since it is a mechanism you have already chosen to use.
Mary: Can you tell me anything about my Teacher? Or I mean do you want to tell me anything about my Teacher?
Mary: Can you tell me anything about my Teacher? Or I mean do you want to tell me anything about my Teacher?
Will: She loves you very much. She is open to you, always, available to you, always, seeking to make contact with you, waiting for you to attempt contact with her and that will come in time if you accept it and choose to do so.
Will: She loves you very much. She is open to you, always, available to you, always, seeking to make contact with you, waiting for you to attempt contact with her and that will come in time if you accept it and choose to do so.
Will: You're welcome.
Will: You're welcome.
===Closing===
Will: JoiLin's blood pressure is dropping and she needs to return to full consciousness.
Will: JoiLin's blood pressure is dropping and she needs to return to full consciousness.
Will: I thank you for that Little One.
Will: I thank you for that Little One.
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