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Natalya: Talk to us Joi.

Natalya: Talk to us Joi.

===='''''[[Learning]]''''', '''''[[Teaching]]''''', '''''[[Love]]'''''====

===='''''[[Learning]]''''', '''''[[Teaching]]''''', '''''[[Love]]'''''====

JoiLin: Yeah, right! (Long pause) I’ve actually been doing a lot of [[thinking]] lately. I’ve [[listened]] to a tape; [[synchronicity]] strikes again...that I...(crying) it was meant for my [[mother]]...but I never sent it, I don’t know why! I guess I forgot about it. I used to sing some [[songs]] to the children in my day care. I did a different one at [[Christmas]] and one for everyday, and many of the kids just drove their [[parents]] crazy because they wouldn’t go in their car unless they had Mimi’s tape, (laughing) and when they went to their (other) grandmother’s (they all [[thought]] I was their grandmother) they insisted that the tape go with them! (Laughing) so I kind of got stuffed down everybody’s throats, you know? And when my mother came to [[visit]] me this one time, whenever the kids went to [[sleep]] I always played the tape for them; it helped them to sleep. And my mother said this one day, "do we really have to [[listen]] to those songs [[ad nauseam]]?" And I said Mom, I’m sorry, but yeah...plug your ears if you have to, but you know this is what the kids like and nap time is their [[happy]] time so they get to have what pleases them.

JoiLin: Yeah, right! (Long pause) I’ve actually been doing a lot of [[thinking]] lately. I’ve [[listened]] to a tape; [[synchronicity]] strikes again...that I...(crying) it was meant for my [[mother]]...but I never sent it, I don’t know why! I guess I forgot about it. I used to sing some [[songs]] to the children in my day care. I did a different one at [[Christmas]] and one for everyday, and many of the kids just drove their [[parents]] crazy because they wouldn’t go in their car unless they had Mimi’s tape, (laughing) and when they went to their (other) grandmother’s (they all [[thought]] I was their grandmother) they insisted that the tape go with them! (Laughing) so I kind of got stuffed down everybody’s throats, you know? And when my mother came to [[visit]] me this one time, whenever the kids went to [[sleep]] I always played the tape for them; it helped them to sleep. And my mother said this one day, "do we really have to [[listen]] to those songs ad nauseam?" And I said Mom, I’m sorry, but yeah...plug your ears if you have to, but you know this is what the kids like and nap time is their [[happy]] time so they get to have what pleases them.

At any rate, I guess a couple of years ago, (three) must have been the beginning of my [[mother]]’s beginning [[mental]] disintegration, because she asked me if I would make a tape of those [[songs]] for her...(crying) and I made the tape, but I never gave it to her...and the other side of the tape just said today’s lesson and chit chat. So I turned it on and [[listened]] to it the other night. It’s funny how much I’ve [[changed]]; how my [[beliefs]] have undergone such dramatic change in these last three years. And so that began a thread and I thought to myself I ought to make a new tape; not knowing that -this- was coming!

At any rate, I guess a couple of years ago, (three) must have been the beginning of my [[mother]]’s beginning [[mental]] disintegration, because she asked me if I would make a tape of those [[songs]] for her...(crying) and I made the tape, but I never gave it to her...and the other side of the tape just said today’s lesson and chit chat. So I turned it on and [[listened]] to it the other night. It’s funny how much I’ve [[changed]]; how my [[beliefs]] have undergone such dramatic change in these last three years. And so that began a thread and I thought to myself I ought to make a new tape; not knowing that -this- was coming!