Changes

What might be right for you and your spiritual [[journey]] may not be for another. You long time sincere [[seekers]], do not be so [[surprised]] when the path makes a sharp turn and you stumble and fall. It will always be this way. That is why a [[questioning]] mind is like a lantern. You are always searching the various avenues, trying new things, keeping what works, discarding what doesn't. The point is that you continue on, build those muscles of [[faith]] with the weights of [[adversity]].

What might be right for you and your spiritual [[journey]] may not be for another. You long time sincere [[seekers]], do not be so [[surprised]] when the path makes a sharp turn and you stumble and fall. It will always be this way. That is why a [[questioning]] mind is like a lantern. You are always searching the various avenues, trying new things, keeping what works, discarding what doesn't. The point is that you continue on, build those muscles of [[faith]] with the weights of [[adversity]].

Even after meeting my mentor/friend Machiventa, I continued on in the fashion I had been raised to believe in. It took a great amount of self-willed release to receive new information. Of course, I sought a higher place in the Kingdom. Of course, I sought the respect and fear from my fellows. With the gently persuasive words of my mentor and friend, I gradually came to see a new and better way.

Even after meeting my mentor/friend [[Machiventa]], I continued on in the fashion I had been raised to believe in. It took a great amount of self-willed release to [[receive]] new [[information]]. Of course, I sought a higher place in [[the Kingdom]]. Of course, I sought the [[respect]] and fear from my fellows. With the gently persuasive words of my [[mentor]] and friend, I [[gradually]] came to see a new and better way.

Machiventa did not pursue me, relentlessly pounding information into my head, so that I may see the light, no. He gave me small bits of understandable information and stepped back, allowing me room to decide for myself. I could see the benefits of his way, but found it quite difficult to let go of my own. I did find through experimentation of his methods that he was indeed correct, and I did implement his ways into my everyday living. I certainly believed I was well on my way within the Kingdom and had gotten quite comfortable with myself. I took on the belief that I was above spiritual regression, but soon found out different after Machiventa departed from Urantia.

Machiventa did not pursue me, relentlessly pounding [[information]] into my head, so that I may see the [[light]], no. He gave me small bits of understandable information and stepped back, allowing me room to [[decide]] for myself. I could see the benefits of his way, but found it quite [[difficult]] to let go of my own. I did find through [[experimentation]] of his [[methods]] that he was indeed correct, and I did implement his ways into my everyday living. I certainly believed I was well on my way within [[the Kingdom]] and had gotten quite comfortable with myself. I took on the [[belief]] that I was above spiritual [[regression]], but soon found out different after [[93:8 Departure of Melchizedek|Machiventa departed from Urantia]].

I became quite fearful that someone would take my beloved Sarah from me. I was paranoid and on the brink of mental breakdown several times. I realized I had lost that questioning mind. I believed I had the answers I needed to get by, to survive. The arrogant mind is a dangerous weapon, for it cannot distinguish dark from light. Time and experience, coupled with living revelation, brought me back to a humble place where I began to open up to spirit direction. My mind was brought into balance, back into reality, yes.

I became quite fearful that someone would take my beloved [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sarah Sarah] from me. I was [[paranoid]] and on the brink of mental [[breakdown]] several times. I realized I had lost that questioning [[mind]]. I believed I had the answers I needed to get by, to [[survive]]. The [[arrogant]] mind is a dangerous [[weapon]], for it cannot distinguish [[dark]] from [[light]]. [[Time]] and [[experience]], coupled with living [[revelation]], brought me back to a humble place where I began to open up to spirit [[direction]]. My mind was brought into balance, back into [[reality]], yes.

I do not feel remorse for this experience because I understand it is part of the Agondonters journey. It is to be used as education--not as a source of embarrassment to keep me humbled. It just is not that serious, children. It is only a lesson, only a step up towards the Father. Do not be surprised when the spiritual poisons befall you. Use these events as a time to return to the questioning mind and the circuits of ministry for higher understanding.

I do not feel [[remorse]] for this [[experience]] because I understand it is part of the [[Agondonters]] [[journey]]. It is to be used as [[education]]--not as a source of [[embarrassment]] to keep me humbled. It just is not that serious, children. It is only a lesson, only a [[step]] up towards [[the Father]]. Do not be [[surprised]] when the [[spiritual poisons]] befall you. Use these [[events]] as a time to return to the questioning mind and [[the circuits]] of ministry for higher [[understanding]].

This week contemplate what benefits you have witness as of late coming to this world as a result of the Supreme's growth. What is revelation? Has comfort on your spiritual path caused you to stumble? What changes can you make to be aware that the ego seeks to stifle the questioning mind. A few questions.

This week contemplate what benefits you have [[witness]] as of late coming to this world as a result of the [[Supreme]]'s [[growth]]. What is [[revelation]]? Has comfort on your spiritual [[path]] caused you to stumble? What changes can you make to be [[aware]] that the [[ego]] seeks to stifle the questioning mind. A few questions.

===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

WILLEENA: Thanks for this self-revealing lesson, a huge gift for us. I have a question that I hope is appropriate. Are you aware of my brother Gary's immediate circumstances? (Not fully, no.) Would it be possible to do a private session? (Certainly.)

WILLEENA: Thanks for this self-revealing lesson, a huge gift for us. I have a question that I hope is appropriate. Are you aware of my brother Gary's immediate circumstances? (Not fully, no.) Would it be possible to do a private session? (Certainly.)