2000-10-22-Tomas Visits

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Topic: Giving Up Fear

Group: Costa Rica TeaM

Facilitators

Teacher: Tomas, Alana, Legion, Tarkeem

TR: S. Butterfield

Session

Opening

Tomas: Greetings, I am Tomas. It is unusual for me to meet with your group. I visit you, as I visit all the groups connected with our mission, with the intention and the desire to encourage you. It is not that each of you, or yourselves as a group, will save the world, nor even should think that is your task. Yet, I am here to tell you, to assure you, that your gathering together, your practice of the heart room, your willingness to continue daily to hone your focus upon the singular light of God’s love, your efforts to express God’s love in your daily lives, all of these things contribute to “saving the world,” as you call it.

I have seen in every group I have visited that as you work diligently in your group practice and in your individual stillness practice, the fruits of this practice, the fruits of God’s joy being experienced by you, inevitably spill out as the full fountain spills the water over the side. This has been most powerful for those who encounter you. You have been practicing the stillness and listening to the teachers and practicing the mission of love, God’s love. Those who encounter you, the environments that are touched by this, become lighter and brighter, with more openings for joy to be expressed. It is joy that men and women must learn. It is joy that is at the heart of the stillness and is the essence of God’s love.

Your world is turbulent with ideas of war and conflict. Even if it seems simple and small, it is important that each of you learn peace of mind. Enter your stillness, enter your heart room, learn to settle your mind, daily. Place it in the center of your blue trampoline. Discover the ability to blow love upon your mental gymnastics. Allow all those “this is the way it should be,” “that is the way it should be,” allow all those conflicts and problems, as you call them, to bounce into God’s joy. See how the fear and the doubts fall away and how you see things differently through the eyes of God’s love.

I am presently giving each one of you a sip, a taste, a touch of who I am. (pause) My greetings. (pause) My greetings to you. (pause) I take your love with me as I leave now. Thank you.

Students: Thank you. Thank you Thomas. I appreciated your teachings about the fruits of the spirit, which were put together by other people. I appreciate the way you taught.

Tomas : Thank you. My blessings upon all of you.

Lesson

Alana : This is Alana, my beloveds. Are we in the heart room all together, yes? (Yes.) It is the fairness of the heart room that you struggle with here. Is it fair to exclude someone from this group? Is it fair that one should be allowed and not another? You walk upon your planet with confidence in our love, faith in our love, certainty in our existence, but you struggle with what to reveal. I will remind you, much as our friend Tomas came to say: you will share our love without even the need for words. It is the experience of our love that you each sought and experience now with me. Given this experience you feel joy, yes? (Yes.) And, as you walk among your friends, this joy is experienced by them, yes? You will become even more attractive, still it is wise to protect your private experience should you believe there is cause to fear. Of course, the greater amount of time that we spend together, the less fear. And when you walk your planet you will discover, not only does your joy leak out, but so does your lack of fear.

Still, I say to you, regarding the question of one who has asked for and received my invitation, I wish to say to you, trust that my love will come to this person in time and on time. It is most important that your fears be released. Not I. Not Michael. Nor any of those who are teachers in this mission would insist that you pretend to be unafraid.

We will take your fears right now. Each of you, place your fears in the middle of our heart room and we shall blow love upon them. Yes?

(Pause)

Dialogue

S : Just on a comical note, I was imagining the gray matter of my brain in the middle of the heart room and taking a baseball bat to it. That’s somewhat different from blowing love upon it.

Alana : Ah so, perhaps you would make a pancake that can be fried in love, yes? Yes, perhaps the heart room would sizzle it. It is your desire to rid yourself of so many thoughts, but I tell you it is not exactly that way. Your mind is a valuable asset, a necessary tool. Your mind is intended to have and to create many thoughts. Your mind creates good thoughts, and thoughts that you would prefer not to have, thoughts that are feared, thoughts that are fearful, angry thoughts. Until you can look upon those thoughts through the eyes of God’s love, you will struggle perpetually, you will beat up on those thoughts, you will try to exterminate them. It is love, love that changes everything. Love erases blame. Love eliminates negativity.

S : Chases fear.

Alana : Chases fear. Yes, we did that once. Again, put that fear in the middle of the heart room and blow love upon it. Can you do that now, my dear, with all that gray matter, as you call it? We shall blow love upon it, yes? This is a difficult thing: to accept with the eyes of God’s love. Practice.

Your diplomats and leaders struggle to achieve fairness in love. Remember to pray for them. Remember to put them in your heart room, your heart room of such magnificent stillness, courage, compassion, and love. If you find yourself even a little bit irritated with them, blow love upon your irritation. You may discover how your irritation with others can turn around and be irritation with yourself. Thank you. I will let Legion speak to you now.

Legion : Welcome. This is Legion. I would speak to you about the fairness of discipline, the discipline of fairness. First, I would ask you to speak among yourselves and to offer any questions you may have today.

S : I think after hearing Tomas and Alana speak, I feel more inclined to open myself up personally to the idea of including my friend in this heart room. It is a matter of acceptance. It is a matter of remembering that we are all unconditionally loved, here in this heart room. How can we not extend that to others we care about? Am I reading this message correctly, Legion?

Legion : We will put your friend, now, in the center of the heart room. Blow love upon her. Yes, if you make a choice, a free will choice, and you have no fear, then you have understood the lesson correctly. Love chases away fear. Thank you. Is there any one else who would speak to me, Legion, today?

D : I’ve been holding my tongue, Legion, because of my reputation for being boisterous on occasion in this group, hoping the other shy members will speak out, but it seems the cat’s got their tongues today. You and I know that I am intrigued by your concept of discipline in love, and discipline in joy. It is a matter of public record now, that I have been going about the business of discovering exactly what the disicpline of joy entails. I keep getting these messages that the essence of God’s love is joy. Well, I don’t have joy all the time. And one of our members last week, he revealed that he didn’t have joy that day. Well that’s OK, we don’t feel joy all the time, but I would like you to make the case a little bit, that joy takes practice.

I decided that making love every day would be a marvelous practice, you know? Making love every day? Why not make love every day? Well, it’s a very joyful experience, a very, very joyful experience. So I am here as testimony, exhibit A. I disciplined myself. I scripted it into my life and made it a foundational thing, like eating and sleeping. Making love is part of my sacred discipline to make the day joyful. I wish you would say a few sweet little kind words to us about why joy takes discipline.

Legion : It is one of the lessons of love to recognize free choice, and to understand that repetition is also a matter of choice. If repetition is forced and becomes automatic only because of force, then you do not have discipline as I speak of it, and you certainly do not have the discipline of love. It is, however, I should say, entirely possible for someone under such dire circumstances as slavery to have an experience in which they choose their slavery and become filled with joy because they are filled with God’s love as the product of surrendering to life as it is for them. By their choice, they discover God’s companionship.

The discipline of joy that I have been teaching you and your wife is really a way of understanding the stillness practice and the practice of the presence of God. If you know that you need to strengthen your body, you know that you must follow some kind of discipline in order to accomplish that goal. If you follow that discipline you inevitably encounter those times when it is painful, or you just don’t want to do it. If you accompany that discipline with the discipline of love and acceptance, you will incorporate the discipline of your emotions. Slowly, you will, with God’s joy, become stronger. Your strength will express and reflect God’s joy.

You, my friend, chose the discipline of love and the discipline of joy and created in your mind a program, a format, called “making love every day.” In the process of attempting to accomplish this joyful feat, you discovered, as you will in any discipline, many things. You discovered that even what you mean by “making love every day” shifted. There was room in your discipline for your partner to say, “No.” “Not today.” “Not that way.” This is not really any different than when your muscles say, No, not today, not that way. The discipline of love, the discipline of joy, the discipline of bringing forth in your lives the glorious fruit of God’s love for you, this discipline will inevitably incorporate fairness, and will always respect the free will choice.

I have been speaking for quite some time. It seems that you and I enjoy that. Have I fulfilled your expectations with your question.

D : Yes. Thank you. I am convinced of it myself, because I’ve tried it out and I am continuing to practice things that make me happy. I was raised as a Christian and I therefore have this whole background in which the pleasurable, the awfully beautiful, and so on, might not be a good thing to indulge yourself in…that’s one of the aspects of Christianity. What I’m seeing about the discipline that you’re suggesting for me, because we usually have associated in our minds with discipline as kind of rigid, hard working, grunt-like, digging ditches sort of thing…I don’t find that at all with this, I choose it, just like you said, every day it is a free choice, just to do it because it feels good to do it. It’s OK to be joyful. It’s OK to be happy. It’s structured. You make the choices every day as to what will make you happy. It’s in your hands.

Legion : You will hear from those who have mastered, shall we say, an instrument of music. Or those who have mastered their bodies for mastery of a sport. Or those who have mastered their tongues for eloquent language. You will hear from them both, as you say, the ditch-digging grind of practice, but you will hear from them also of joy, the taste of that joy, the love, the permeation of that love throughout their body-mind-heart and soaring soul. That is what leads them on. And so it is we come to you in your heart room, to lead you on.

It is true that in the past, even in the present, many of your theological concepts have been structured by fearful minds, fearful in their own minds and fearful of the freedom of God’s blessing upon you, your free will choice. So they establish rules, this is good, that is bad. Sometimes they are quite correct. But when you try to rigidify truth, you begin to breed a dead truth. For truth, like love, like joy, like fairness, like compassion, is living. God’s love is a living love.

Some are distracted and taken on a journey of many mistakes by their pursuit of certain beauty, or permanent love. Many mistakes are made in life. The living waters of God’s love pours over all. Each individual must find their way. Choose their path. Respect the many different kinds of pathways to understanding. You, my friend, have chosen one form of discipline, one form of the discipline of joy, God’s joy, God’s love. Many people might make the same choice as you. Many might wish to make that choice, and be envious because they do not make that choice. Some will make a different choice, such as those who “make love,” let us say, by daily prayer without sexual intercourse or marital-type relationships. They, too, may discover God’s joy. They, too, may discover God’s love. You know them by their fruits.

It is equally true that there are many mistaken ideas about God’s love as it pours through into service. There are many who mistake service for a kind of duty that is, shall we say, an obligation, not a joy. Service in God’s love will always bring joy to your heart, joy to those whose hearts are touched by such service. Those of you who choose the path of service to one other, or many others, will radiate this joy. It will be seen, by me, by Michael, and by your fellow human beings.

Yes, are there any other questions right now? We may take a break, if you wish, and you may discuss your concerns before we return. Thank you.

  • (Break)

TR : I thank you for this opportunity to be together and to listen. I welcome all teachers. I surrender my fears and doubts to God. Thank you.

Tarkeem : This is Tarkeem. You wish to speak to me. (TR turned directly to E.)

E : Yes. Tarkeem, you know all I’m thinking. For four months every breath has been like this breeze. Joy has been without thought. Now for four or five days, it is as though I never knew that. I do not believe this comes from my mind because my mind dwells on the same things that it has dwelled on for four months. It is not fear, it is almost like a terror, it’s physical, like a rock falling. My body tingles. My breath does not breathe. I don’t know what’s going on, but I do not feel it is a matter of not being in love, of not being in good heart, of not being in the heart room. It is not to my mind fear. It is physical, but not an illness. I don’t know what is happening. And I don’t know if it is related to my two experiences, one the talking (when Legion and Tarkeem spent four hours with him in the morning studying the Lord’s Prayer), or if it is related to the group experience we all shared. I am waiting for this boulder to drop. Would you talk to me about this, please?

Tarkeem : My friend, it is time for you to change. As you move back out into the world again, you will discover how your power to love will be expressed differently. You will interact with friends and acquaintances in new ways. Your spurt of growth, as the baby chickens in the incubator, eggs cracking at different times, many little chickens beginning to peep under the warmth of light, eventually comes change, comes leaving the safe warm confines of the incubation. You wait, as if waiting for the other shoe to drop. Speak to your friends whom you shall meet about this experience of such sudden, rapid, easy, joyful growth, and from this magnificent expansion a choice is made and change begins to invade your security. Speak to others about that other shoe, the shoe of a lifetime of denying the power of pure joy, God’s love, to penetrate and permeate life all the way through. It is difficult to believe that God’s love embraces all suffering. It is difficult to believe that God’s presence is yours at all times. You encounter the experiential necessity to believe when your faith is shaken. Yes, we do want you to spend more time with others. This disruption to what you had so gratefully achieved, and gratefully received, and joyfully lived, this disruption is necessary for you. Look into the fairness of it, my friend. That you should pass through this shadow of doubt. I am with you, as I have been before. You are embraced by love. Your peace of mind has not been taken from you. You will, by your own choice, even many choices my friend, you will discover this is true, your peace, your love, your heavenly joy is not gone.

E : This is true, I said it badly, none of my heavenly joy, my peace, my good heart, my love, have gone. They are still here. But it is as if I’ve been waiting for this physical explosion, actually physical. It will not change my good heart or my love, but my skin tingles, sometimes my breath doesn’t breathe, my heart doesn’t beat, and it’s as if I am waiting for this glorious, glorious explosion. I’ve taken a lot of the groups time, so if you want to tell me in another way, that’s fine.

Tarkeem : My friend, your concerns are valuable not only to you. Do not imagine this explosion, as you call it, is in the future. You have been through an explosion. You wait now for the other shoe to drop. My friend, love, love, love.

E : You are saying the blinding white light is the blinding white light? The blinding white light that will disintegrate me, that I am looking for, is that same blinding white light that disintegrate me with my friends here one Sunday. And I am looking to the future, I am looking for that. Is that what you said to me? I am looking for that past blinding white light?

Tarkeem : You, like many others, put the divine explosion of love into the same category of human experiencing and so you had an extraordinary experience, and you opened and allowed that extraordinary powerful force of God’s light and love to enter into your body and into your mind and into your physical experience. Now my friend, you want to repeat that. Rather, my friend, I would ask you to allow your life to unfold that experience, into your world of friends, family, and peopled experience. You may, indeed, pray if you wish for the light of God to take you away, but it is equally important, I tell you, to allow the light of God to embrace you every day, in the ordinary interactions of being. Yes, take yourself out more often so that you practice carrying the light within you, sharing it with others, and seeing it in them. Your time has not yet come, my friend, to leave your body; it is time for you to take your body with the light and our love and be among others with this new experience within you, not as a memory of the past, or not as a waiting for the future, but as a mission of love to carry your new perception of truth into your every action and reaction. Thank you.

E : Thank you.

Alana : Alana is here.

S : I want to say a special thank you this week, Alana. (Yes.) I have been trying to learn how to ask, and first I had to ask you to help me learn how to ask. And I have been seeing things with a lot more clarity. I feel good about that. Thank you for your help.

Alana : Yes. You are very welcome. I will ask you to teach your friend.

S : My friend, V?

Alana : Well, your transmitter has difficulty right now understanding what I want of you. What she sees is this: ask and you shall receive. This is the lesson you are learning. I ask you to speak with your friend, E, on a regular basis, for, shall I say ten days, much like our favorite ten minutes. Simply to speak with him about this new discovery of yours, ask and you shall receive. Thank you.

S : I certainly will. Thank you.

Alana : I now give extra moments of love to each of you. Are you well, my friend over there, our young friend learning patience? Yes.

D : Did you get that she was asking about you? (Yes.)

Alana : Thank you, my friend. He feels loved. Yes? (Yes.) Do you have a question? If not, that is perfectly acceptable. Our goal is for you to feel loved, and I gladly shower my love upon you, as well as my little one sitting next to you.

D : How is your little one doing? She slipped off to SJ, so I am wondering if you kept an eye on her. She is a little shy about asking about herself, so I ask you to help her out a little bit today.

Closing

Alana : Thank you, my friend. My little one is in daily communication with God’s love. I see her from time to time. She allows my love and the love of many teachers to come to her. (N : Thank you.) Thank you. (O coughs.) Yes, there is a desire for special attention? May I give it to you, my friend, O. (Yes.) Your warm light spot, ah what a pleasure it is to stroke it now and again. All of you are worthy of my conversation. Each of you is worthy of God’s love. Now I will go and give your transmitter time in the stillness with you, Legion, Tarkeem, and Devina. As we sit in this heart room of stillness, deepen, deepen your call to God. Open your hearts and your minds. Allow God’s call to you. Receive our love and give it, give it, give it. To yourselves. To each other. To every part of the world that is yours. Thank you.

D : Thank you, Alana.

Group stillness and prayer. The TR experienced Alana’s touch and was filled with love. The TR felt a flooding of compassion that brought tears of joy.

E’s feedback was: I got it!