Changes

==Session==

==Session==

===Opening===

===Opening===

LinEL: Greetings. This is LinEL. I am your teacher. I am glad to be here amongst you tonight. I am glad to see new visiting faces. Please feel welcome and feel that you can participate as fully as you wish. I thought tonight it would be pleasant and interesting for all to discuss some on the quiet time. I know that all of you have been doing this for some time. There were initial questions as to the value of this quiet time and its purpose. I hope that many of you have begun to understand, and I would also like tonight to answer any questions or fears/ concerns you may have about your reactions to this time. I would say that within each of you is an infinite possibility in this reaction, this interaction that you enter into when you commit to the Father in the quiet time.

LinEL: Greetings. This is LinEL. I am your [[teacher]]. I am glad to be here amongst you tonight. I am glad to see new [[visiting]] faces. Please feel [[welcome]] and feel that you can [[participate]] as fully as you wish. I thought tonight it would be pleasant and interesting for all to [[discuss]] some on the [[quiet]] time. I know that all of you have been doing this for some time. There were initial [[questions]] as to the [[value]] of this quiet time and its [[purpose]]. I [[hope]] that many of you have begun to [[understand]], and I would also like tonight to answer any questions or [[fears]]/concerns you may have about your reactions to this time. I would say that within each of you is an [[infinite]] possibility in this [[reaction]], this [[interaction]] that you enter into when you commit to [[the Father]] in the [[quiet time]].

===Lesson===

===Lesson===

I know that many of you go to this time with expectations at one level or another. This is natural. This is the way your minds operate when dealing with an unknown situation. This is not something that you were trained to do. I know that in your quiet times you have experiences many things. I would like to say that anything that you have experienced in this time is valuable, is worth considering. Do not shove it away as a mere mental noise. Do try to attain this quiet space. However, notice the type of static that comes up when you approach this time. Some of you have difficulty with the amount of time. Your mind begins to wander after a minute or so, perhaps even less. I know this is difficult for you and often causes more disappointment than the situation merits. It is acceptable for you to reach for the Father throughout the day, for small grasps, small touches, small thoughts in his direction. This will serve in the same manner. It will also serve to begin to create a habit, a habit of reaching to the Father throughout your day in the midst of your lives, your busyness and your anxiety. I would suggest to some of you if you have trouble with disturbing images of perhaps violence, anxiety or unknown disturbing emotions, I would suggest to you to remember these feelings.

I know that many of you go to this time with [[expectations]] at one level or another. This is [[natural]]. This is the way your [[minds]] operate when dealing with an [[unknown]] situation. This is not something that you were [[trained]] to do. I know that in your [[quiet]] times you have [[experienced]] many things. I would like to say that anything that you have experienced in this [[time]] is valuable, is worth [[considering]]. Do not shove it away as a mere mental [[noise]]. Do try to attain this [[quiet]] [[space]]. However, notice the type of [[static]] that comes up when you approach this time. Some of you have [[difficulty]] with the amount of time. Your mind begins to wander after a minute or so, perhaps even less. I know this is [[difficult]] for you and often causes more [[disappointment]] than the situation merits. It is acceptable for you to reach for [[the Father]] throughout the day, for small grasps, small [[touches]], small [[thoughts]] in his direction. This will serve in the same [[manner]]. It will also serve to begin to create a [[habit]], a habit of reaching to [[the Father]] throughout your day in the midst of your lives, your [[busyness]] and your [[anxiety]]. I would suggest to some of you if you have trouble with disturbing images of perhaps [[violence]], [[anxiety]] or unknown disturbing [[emotions]], I would suggest to you to remember these [[feelings]].

Attempt to stay within the quite time frame and tell the Father how you feel about these things. I would also suggest to those of you who are having difficulty with this time, it is acceptable to create a safe place within your mind. Many mortals are of several minds. There is the mind that does not desire the contact with the Father, that desires the animal, more base pleasures, needs. There is the mind within you that does seek the Father. It may be necessary to create an environment within your mind, within your imagination, that is safe for you to go, safe from disruption. I encourage you to create whatever space you feel that you could sit and talk with the Father. This could be a place by a lake, a room full of light, smells, whatever causes you to relax, whatever makes you feel that you are safe and at home. Any exercise that you can do to bring to this time is acceptable. For as I said, there is an infinite possibility in each of you to many ways of approaching this communion with the Father. There are no rules. The only rule, and I would say suggestion, is that you attempt to do this, whether you are successful or not. I have heard many of you say "Am I doing this right or wrong?" I would encourage you to look at that statement.

Attempt to stay within the [[quiet time]] frame and tell [[the Father]] how you [[feel]] about these things. I would also suggest to those of you who are having [[difficulty]] with this time, it is [[acceptable]] to create a safe place within your [[mind]]. Many [[mortals]] are of several minds. There is the mind that does not [[desire]] the [[contact]] with [[the Father,]] that desires the [[animal]], more base [[pleasures]], needs. There is the mind within you that does seek [[the Father]]. It may be [[necessary]] to create an [[environment]] within your mind, within your [[imagination]], that is safe for you to go, safe from disruption. I [[encourage]] you to create whatever [[space]] you feel that you could sit and talk with [[the Father]]. This could be a place by a lake, a room full of [[light]], [[Fragrance|smells]], whatever causes you to [[relax]], whatever makes you feel that you are [[safe]] and at [[home]]. Any [[exercise]] that you can do to bring to this time is [[acceptable]]. For as I said, there is an [[infinite]] [[possibility]] in each of you to many ways of approaching this [[communion]] with [[the Father]]. There are no rules. The only rule, and I would say suggestion, is that you attempt to do this, whether you are successful or not. I have heard many of you say "Am I doing this right or wrong?" I would [[encourage]] you to look at that [[statement]].

Ignore the right or wrong, and instead focus on the doing. The doing is the important part. It is not important whether you succeed or fail, just attempt to forgive yourself for these apparent failings and I assure you they are not failings if you attempt to do them. Those of you who hear music, who see images, colors, who perhaps feel a childlike presence within them, striving for this talk with the Father - allow yourself these images. Allow your mind to wander down these paths. It is not necessary for you to clear this out, to shove all away, and simply stare at blackness. I encourage your to use whatever positive tools within you. Some of these may arise in this time and surprise you, but use them. They are yours. They are your creation. They are your unique expression of this space, of this time with the Father, allowing you to more comfortably communicate with him. You are laying the foundations, establishing a flavor for your special relationship with him.

[[Ignore]] the right or wrong, and instead [[focus]] on the [[doing]]. The doing is the important part. It is not important whether you succeed or fail, just attempt to [[forgive]] yourself for these apparent failings and I [[assure]] you they are not failings if you attempt to do them. Those of you who hear [[music]], who see images, [[colors]], who perhaps feel a childlike [[presence]] within them, striving for this talk with [[the Father]] - allow yourself these images. Allow your mind to [[wander]] down these [[paths]]. It is not [[necessary]] for you to clear this out, to shove all away, and simply stare at [[blackness]]. I [[encourage]] your to use whatever positive [[tools]] within you. Some of these may arise in this time and [[surprise]] you, but use them. They are yours. They are your creation. They are your unique [[expression]] of this [[space]], of this time with [[the Father]], allowing you to more comfortably [[communicate]] with him. You are laying the [[foundations]], establishing a flavor for your special [[relationship]] with him.

I encourage any questions and comments at this time. Please feel free to share, and/ or ask anything about this process, anything that troubles you. We truly wish for this time to be special for you. We know that it is a struggle, and it is difficult, and we would like to help in any way possible to clear up any confusion, alleviate any fears.

I [[encourage]] any questions and comments at this [[time]]. Please feel free to [[share]], and/ or ask anything about this [[process]], anything that troubles you. We truly wish for this time to be special for you. We know that it is a [[struggle]], and it is [[difficult]], and we would like to help in any way possible to clear up any [[confusion]], alleviate any [[fears]].

===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

Alan: I was just thinking from what you are saying, when I do quiet time, I often do it as something I "should" do, sort of like I am doing it for the Father, and some of what I hear you saying is that I need to work at getting to a place where I am doing it for myself - because that contact with the Father is such a positive thing that I want to do it.

Alan: I was just [[thinking]] from what you are saying, when I do [[quiet time]], I often do it as something I "should" do, sort of like I am doing it for [[the Father]], and some of what I hear you saying is that I need to work at getting to a place where I am doing it for myself - because that [[contact]] with [[the Father]] is such a [[positive]] thing that I want to do it.

LinEL: It is often difficult to immediately contact this desire within you, to do it for yourself. You have not received much encouragement for these selfish actions. If you do it for the Father, this is good enough. If the time that you put aside is perhaps, as you would think of it, a "gift" to him, then so be it. Many of you volunteer your time for other worthy causes. Volunteer ten minutes of your time to the cause of the Father. This would not at all be inappropriate if it allows you the freedom to do it.

LinEL: It is often [[difficult]] to [[immediately]] contact this [[desire]] within you, to do it for yourself. You have not [[received]] much [[encouragement]] for these [[selfish]] [[actions]]. If you do it for [[the Father]], this is good enough. If the time that you put aside is perhaps, as you would think of it, a "gift" to him, then so be it. Many of you [[volunteer]] your time for other [[worthy]] causes. Volunteer ten minutes of your time to the cause of [[the Father]]. This would not at all be inappropriate if it allows you the [[freedom]] to do it.

Jewels: I would like to make sure I am understanding what you said about having the violent thoughts or pictures. A couple of times in my quiet time I had violent words. These words weren't violent, but the way they were said was extremely violent, and I found it upsetting because I don't even use those words in my everyday vocabulary, and the part that upset me I didn't think that you guys would say those things, and yet I never said it, but I figured it had to be me. Now my understanding from what your lesson was is that this is my animal mind that is doing this, kicking up a little fight.

Jewels: I would like to make sure I am [[understanding]] what you said about having the [[violent]] [[thoughts]] or [[pictures]]. A couple of times in my [[quiet time]] I had [[violent]] [[words]]. These words weren't violent, but the way they were said was extremely violent, and I found it upsetting because I don't even use those words in my everyday [[vocabulary]], and the part that upset me I didn't think that you guys would say those things, and yet I never said it, but I figured it had to be me. Now my [[understanding]] from what your lesson was is that this is my [[animal]] mind that is doing this, kicking up a little fight.

LinEL: Yes. This is a part of you - a part of you who did not receive the love and care that you so deserved. And please look at it as a part of you that you must turn to nurture and love because every part of you is important to the Father. This part is as you say kicking up a fight. Why wouldn't that small Julie want to trust in this - want to trust in a father who turned against her, who was not there for her, and did not reach out to her when she cried. This is the part of you that you must love, that you, the adult, must show the way to the Father. Teach this small part of you the wonders and the love of the Father as you understand. In these times of violent word times try to maintain contact with the Father. Ride out this fury. Let it subside, let it play itself out. It will not harm you if you keep in contact with the Father. Hold his hand and allow this rage to express itself. Draw strength, then after the silence, draw strength from the Father and feed it to this small child. Have I made myself clear in this? If you require any further explanation, please ask. This is a sensitive and private matter, I know. And I do not wish any misunderstanding. Jewels: Okay. Thank you. LinEL: Thank you.

LinEL: Yes. This is a part of you - a part of you who did not [[receive]] the [[love]] and care that you so deserved. And please look at it as a part of you that you must turn to [[nurture]] and [[love]] because every part of you is important to [[the Father]]. This part is as you say kicking up a fight. Why wouldn't that small Julie want to [[trust]] in this - want to trust in a [[father]] who turned against her, who was not there for her, and did not reach out to her when she cried. This is the part of you that you must [[love]], that you, the [[adult]], must show the way to [[the Father]]. Teach this small part of you the [[wonders]] and the love of [[the Father]] as you [[understand]]. In these times of [[violent]] word times try to maintain [[contact]] with [[the Father]]. Ride out this fury. Let it subside, let it [[play]] itself out. It will not harm you if you keep in [[contact]] with [[the Father]]. Hold his hand and allow this [[rage]] to [[express]] itself. Draw [[strength]], then after the [[silence]], draw strength from [[the Father]] and feed it to this small child. Have I made myself [[clear]] in this? If you require any further [[explanation]], please ask. This is a [[sensitive]] and private matter, I know. And I do not wish any misunderstanding. [[Jewels]]: Okay. Thank you.  

Thea: So one of the ways to heal those old wounds is to bring them to the Father's love?

LinEL: Thank you.

LinEL: The only way to heal these old wounds that you all carry, these deep wounds, is to fill them with the Father's love, yes. I cannot stress this enough!

Thea: So one of the ways to [[heal]] those old [[wounds]] is to bring them to [[the Father]]'s [[love]]?

Doug: Could you talk about the collective consciousness and the difference between the personal quiet time and the group combined quiet time? Is there a different circuitry?

Doug: Could you talk about the [[collective consciousness]] and the [[difference]] between the [[personal]] quiet time and the [[group]] combined quiet time? Is there a different [[circuitry?

LinEL: It is not different circuitry, but it is reinforcement. It is a group sharing, as sharing a conversation, or connecting similar thoughts between two people. There is an excitement, an enhancement in this sharing. This is why this group quiet time is sometimes more effective for you all. I know through my contacts with you all that this quiet time together here is special to each of you in different ways. Does this serve to answer your questions? I do encourage this activity. Doug: Yes. Thank you. Pam: I appreciate this chance to talk about this because it's something I've had trouble focussing on and making myself do, and I got this image of the Father standing at the door and knocking and am I going to just know that he's there knocking, and not open the door? So that will help me to open the door more frequently. LinEL: I am glad this happened.

]]LinEL: It is not different circuitry, but it is reinforcement. It is a [[group]] [[sharing]], as sharing a [[conversation]], or connecting similar [[thoughts]] between two people. There is an [[excitement]], an enhancement in this [[sharing]]. This is why this group quiet time is sometimes more [[effective]] for you all. I know through my contacts with you all that this [[quiet time]] together here is special to each of you in different ways. Does this serve to answer your questions? I do [[encourage]] this [[activity]].  

David: You made a statement about "don't worry about doing it right", but just the fact that you're doing it, I wondered, to be more successful in my quiet time if I needed to a part of my consciousness or unconsciousness that I don't normally contact? Is that correct? Should I just deal with my consciousness and be satisfied with that?

Doug: Yes. Thank you.

LinEL: If you feel that this unconscious part of yourself is yearning to be expressed, or is there nudging you, then allow it to express itself. Allow yourself to explore this new part of yourself. If you do not feel this urging, then do not explore this. I assure you that it will come up in time, but now may not be it. It is much of the unexpressed part of you - your potential - and when it starts to require birth, please explore this. It will be enlightening and useful to you.

Pam: I appreciate this [[chance]] to talk about this because it's something I've had trouble [[focusing]] on and making myself do, and I got this [[image]] of [[the Father]] standing at the door and knocking and am I going to just know that he's there knocking, and not open the door? So that will help me to open the door more frequently.  

David: Besides the quiet time, is there anything else I can do to speed this little thing up?

LinEL: I am glad this happened.

LinEL: I would say this to you all. When going about your daily activities, when spending time at home in the evenings, try to be aware of those little interruptions that give you pleasure, that seem to have no purpose, no result, that simply give you pleasure. This may be a pleasing scene, a moment of pondering some mechanical device, (Laughter) . .. I have noticed one instance where a mortal caught himself stretching a rubber band back and forth and getting much pleasure from this . (Laughter) Notice these things. Make note of them. These are small parts of yourself, small parts of this consciousness. Things that give you small pleasures, things that you do not have to have results from. All of you have trouble with playing with, enjoying yourself it there is not result achieved. Look for the things that simply give you pleasure. Indulge yourself in these. This will be one of the keys to approaching this unconscious part of yourself, this inner potential. This is just one way, but a simple way, and it is enjoyable. Cindy: What do you mean by "it's a way to approach this inner potential"? I'm not sure I understand the connection between these enjoyable moments and our spiritual growth.

David: You made a [[statement]] about "don't worry about doing it right", but just the fact that you're doing it, I [[wondered]], to be more successful in my [[quiet time]] if I needed to a part of my [[consciousness]] or [[unconsciousness]] that I don't normally [[contact]]? Is that correct? Should I just deal with my consciousness and be [[satisfied]] with that?

LinEL: You suppress so much of yourselves, so much of the children that you once were, the expressive, delightful young beings. As you grow, you put away these supposed unimportant things, these childish behaviors. In the process of putting these things away - and some of this is appropriate as you grow into adulthood - although other important things are put away, these are the things that as you begin to rediscover and reclaim these into your conscious personality, you will become the person you were meant to be. Does this make sense to you?

LinEL: If you feel that this [[unconscious]] part of yourself is yearning to be [[expressed]], or is there nudging you, then allow it to [[express]] itself. Allow yourself to [[explore]] this new part of yourself. If you do not [[feel]] this urging, then do not [[explore]] this. I [[assure]] you that it will come up in time, but now may not be it. It is much of the unexpressed part of you - your [[potential]] - and when it starts to require [[birth]], please explore this. It will be [[enlightening]] and useful to you.

Cindy: Yes. I was personally reflecting that that childlikeness is something that I have always valued, and the playfulness. So it's nice to hear that validated and that is important.

LinEL: I would say this to you all. When going about your daily [[activities]], when spending time at [[home]] in the evenings, try to be [[aware]] of those little [[interruptions]] that give you [[pleasure]], that seem to have no [[purpose]], no result, that simply give you [[pleasure]]. This may be a pleasing scene, a moment of pondering some [[mechanical]] device, (Laughter) . .. I have noticed one instance where a mortal caught himself stretching a rubber band back and forth and getting much [[pleasure]] from this . ([[Laughter]]) Notice these things. Make note of them. These are small parts of yourself, small parts of this [[consciousness]]. Things that give you small [[pleasures]], things that you do not have to have results from. All of you have trouble with [[playing]] with, enjoying yourself it there is not result [[achieved]]. Look for the things that [[simply]] give you [[pleasure]]. Indulge yourself in these. This will be one of the keys to approaching this [[unconscious]] part of yourself, this inner [[potential]]. This is just one way, but a simple way, and it is enjoyable.  

Cindy: What do you mean by "it's a way to approach this inner potential"? I'm not sure I [[understand]] the [[connection]] between these enjoyable [[moments]] and our [[spiritual growth]].

LinEL: Some of you may find this process of rediscovering your inner self far more painful than teething. (Moans and laughter) That is why I suggest you approach this inner discovery through playfulness. It is perhaps one of the least painful ways to find this. And also, ask the Father to show you, ask the Father for guidance.

LinEL: You suppress so much of yourselves, so much of the [[children]] that you once were, the [[expressive]], delightful young [[beings]]. As you grow, you put away these supposed unimportant [[things]], these childish [[behaviors]]. In the [[process]] of putting these things away - and some of this is appropriate as you grow into [[adulthood]] - although other important things are put away, these are the things that as you begin to rediscover and reclaim these into your [[conscious]] [[personality]], you will become the [[person]] you were meant to be. Does this make sense to you?

David: Are there examples in the Urantia Book such as in Christ's life where we may find what you are talking about?

Cindy: Yes. I was personally [[reflecting]] that that childlikeness is something that I have always [[valued]], and the [[playfulness]]. So it's nice to hear that validated and that is important.

LinEL: I cannot recommend a single passage. This is something that in your current state of social evolution is an easier concept to discuss now. It was not so discussed then. I would encourage you to read all of the Master's life's papers. There is much enlightenment, much enjoyment, much discovery in all of these.

LinEL: Some of you may find this [[process]] of rediscovering your [[Inner Life|inner self]] far more painful than [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Teething teething]. (Moans and [[laughter]]) That is why I suggest you approach this inner [[discovery]] through playfulness. It is perhaps one of the least [[painful]] ways to find this. And also, ask [[the Father]] to show you, ask the Father for [[guidance]].

Delores: I liked what you said about creating a space because just this week from Deep Space Nine, when Quark was trying to bribe Odo, and he said "Wouldn't you like to" - he melts into a bucket at night - "sleep in a solid gold bucket?" And he thought about it. And I thought about gold and I looked at this wedding ring and it has a special light to it. You know, real gold is something really special, and I sort of created the place in my head where I tried to line my heart with gold where the Father could live, so he would have a bucket to go to that would be there. And what happened was then it became a symbol where different images and messages were coming to me about gold because I had done that and this sense of it, the sense of the lost childhood. Today I was just crying my eyes out in my quiet time because I was thinking of the gold on the planet and the treasure. People hoard the treasure and the treasure of your lives, the things that are meaningful. I felt really sad because of all the things I had lost, and the meaningful things I had lost - friends and relationships and things - but it was like my thought adjuster said, "It's okay because I have all your gold." It was just really incredible the way the imagery kept reflecting up. It really helps to create and imagery. It's almost a language that can reflect back on itself through time, right?

David: Are there examples in the [[Urantia Book]] such as in [[Christ]]'s life where we may find what you are talking about?

LinEL: Yes. You will find that these images that you create for yourselves, these images that are important to you, that hold special meaning, can be used by your inner Father fragment to communicate with you easier, more readily, through using images you create. It is a way for you to create a common language that you can both communicate in. I would add that when I fused with my thought adjuster, I reclaimed much of that lost treasure myself, and believe me, Delores, I assure you that none of it is lost! There was more there than I ever expected. You are all truly wealthy.

LinEL: I cannot recommend a single passage. This is something that in your current state of [[social]] [[evolution]] is an easier [[concept]] to discuss now. It was not so [[discussed]] then. I would [[encourage]] you to read all of [[the Master]]'s life's papers. There is much [[enlightenment]], much [[enjoyment]], much [[discovery]] in all of these.

Thea: One struggle I had during the quiet time is the embarrassing difficulties that often come into my mind that now would be a good time to do the quiet time, and practically before the thought is fully formed, I think, well, I need to do this (other thing) first, or I can do it later, or a whole lot of other things, to put it off. And I have trouble with this. It's really a struggle. I appreciate the image of the Father knocking on the door, because that will help, too. I suppose . .. I guess I'd like to hear what you have to say about that problem, but also to ask you if using these images can help with that, too.

Delores: I liked what you said about creating a [[space]] because just this week from [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deep_Space_Nine Deep Space Nine], when Quark was trying to bribe Odo, and he said "Wouldn't you like to" - he melts into a bucket at night - "sleep in a solid gold bucket?" And he thought about it. And I thought about gold and I looked at this wedding ring and it has a special [[light]] to it. You know, real [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gold gold] is something really special, and I sort of created the place in my head where I tried to line my [[heart]] with gold where [[the Father]] could live, so he would have a bucket to go to that would be there. And what happened was then it became a [[symbol]] where different [[images]] and [[messages]] were coming to me about gold because I had done that and this sense of it, the sense of the lost [[childhood]]. Today I was just [[crying]] my eyes out in my [[quiet time]] because I was [[thinking]] of the gold on [[the planet]] and the [[treasure]]. People hoard the treasure and the treasure of your lives, the things that are meaningful. I felt really sad because of all the things I had lost, and the meaningful things I had lost - [[friends]] and [[relationships]] and things - but it was like my [[Thought Adjuster]] said, "It's okay because I have all your gold." It was just really incredible the way the [[imagery]] kept [[reflecting]] up. It really helps to create and imagery. It's almost a [[language]] that can [[reflect]] back on itself through time, right?

LinEL: Part of the reason that you turn away from this space with the Father is that something you have an association with in this time that is unpleasant, that you have difficulty with. Try to think what this association is and examine it. Perhaps change your frame of mind, change your

LinEL: Yes. You will find that these [[images]] that you create for yourselves, these images that are important to you, that hold special [[meaning]], can be used by your inner [[Father fragment]] to [[communicate]] with you easier, more readily, through using images you create. It is a way for you to create a common [[language]] that you can both [[communicate]] in. I would add that when I [[fused]] with my [[Thought Adjuster]], I reclaimed much of that lost [[treasure]] myself, and [[believe]] me, Delores, I [[assure]] you that none of it is lost! There was more there than I ever [[expected]]. You are all truly [[wealthy]].

setting. Create a neutral space so that you do not feel that you are walking to him. Try to meet the Father halfway if you need to. I can tell you he will walk all the way to you if necessary. You need only be open. Part of this resistance that you feel is a fear of receiving the rewards of accepting the good things of this relationship. I find it interesting that in your culture the highest form of spiritual attainment is to go into a cold, uncomfortable place and punish yourself to attain this height of spiritualness. You each carry this in your minds. It is a holdover from early puritanical days - that spiritual matters contain no joy. "If you are receiving rewards, you are being lazy, that you do not deserve them. How can you hold this relationship with the Father in the same light as reward for yourself; you must approach him selflessly. " All of these teachings are extremely destructive to this time that you try to forge with him - this true time, this true relationship. This is a struggle for all of you. This is a struggle for your world. You have not been taught that the Father is accepting and loving. Instead you have been taught that you must earn his love, that you must suffer for his love. You were all taught that Jesus died for you, he suffered for you. Even though you intellectually understand this to not be true, it still sets in your minds, it still is an overriding part of your culture. You do not have to suffer for the Father's love, but you need to come to an understanding of this, an understanding that you can accept all the good things that the Father has in store for you. This is difficult. This is not something that you will achieve an understanding of overnight. Part of the problem is that you do not know where you are going. You do not know what it feels like to be on the other side of this problem, so you must trust, be led blindly to your destination. You must trust the Father to lead you to this place, this place of joy and happiness. Thea: Thank you.

LinEL: Thank you for your question. Is there anything I can say to further clarify this point?

LinEL: Part of the reason that you turn away from this [[space]] with [[the Father]] is that something you have an [[association]] with in this [[time]] that is unpleasant, that you have [[difficulty]] with. Try to think what this [[association]] is and [[examine]] it. Perhaps change your [[frame of mind]], change your

setting. Create a neutral [[space]] so that you do not [[feel]] that you are walking to him. Try to meet [[the Father]] halfway if you need to. I can tell you he will walk all the way to you if [[necessary]]. You need only be open. Part of this [[resistance]] that you feel is a [[fear]] of receiving the [[rewards]] of accepting the [[good]] things of this [[relationship]]. I find it interesting that in your [[culture]] the highest form of [[spiritual]] [[attainment]] is to go into a cold, uncomfortable place and punish yourself to [[attain]] this height of [[Spirituality|spiritualness]]. You each carry this in your [[minds]]. It is a holdover from early [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Puritan puritanical]] days - that spiritual matters contain no [[joy]]. "If you are receiving [[rewards]], you are being [[lazy]], that you do not deserve them. How can you hold this [[relationship]] with [[the Father]] in the same light as reward for yourself; you must approach him selflessly. " All of these teachings are [[extremely]] destructive to this [[time]] that you try to forge with him - this true time, this true [[relationship]]. This is a [[struggle]] for all of you. This is a struggle for your world. You have not been taught that [[the Father]] is [[accepting]] and loving. Instead you have been taught that you must [[earn]] his [[love]], that you must [[suffer]] for his love. You were all taught that [[Jesus]] died for you, he [[suffered]] for you. Even though you [[intellectually]] understand this to not be true, it still sets in your [[minds]], it still is an overriding part of your [[culture]]. You do not have to [[suffer]] for [[the Father]]'s love, but you need to come to an [[understanding]] of this, an understanding that you can [[accept]] all the good things that [[the Father]] has in store for you. This is [[difficult]]. This is not something that you will [[achieve]] an understanding of overnight. Part of the [[problem]] is that you do not know where you are going. You do not know what it [[feels]] like to be on the other side of this problem, so you must [[trust]], be led [[blindly]] to your [[destination]]. You must trust [[the Father]] to lead you to this place, this place of [[joy]] and [[happiness]]. Thea: Thank you.

Terry: I would like to go back to the wealth that you receive from your adjuster when you fuse. I never thought of it as you expressed it. Do I get the impression that the things, or your experiences through your lifetime - the things that you have long forgotten - the thought adjuster retains those worthwhile acts or situations that have arisen and retains them, and reconfirms them upon you upon fusion. Is this what I am understanding?

Terry: I would like to go back to the [[wealth]] that you receive from your [[Adjuster]] when you [[fuse]]. I never thought of it as you expressed it. Do I get the impression that the things, or your experiences through your lifetime - the things that you have long forgotten - the thought adjuster retains those worthwhile acts or situations that have arisen and retains them, and reconfirms them upon you upon fusion. Is this what I am understanding?

LinEL: This is part of what I meant. The other part was the things you pass off, the things that you are not aware of, that you ignore because you are busy judging the action, you are busy looking forward to how you could possibly have done it better. These are the gems in your life that when you receive them in fusion you suddenly realize that you were doing it right.

LinEL: This is part of what I meant. The other part was the things you pass off, the things that you are not aware of, that you ignore because you are busy judging the action, you are busy looking forward to how you could possibly have done it better. These are the gems in your life that when you receive them in fusion you suddenly realize that you were doing it right.