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AUGUST 1, 2002 (same date as part II)

AUGUST 1, 2002 (same date as part II)

===Opening===

===Opening===

Greeting to all! This is your friend and teacher Welmek. I am pleased to see you on this Friday evening, for in your culture this has been an evening of play; and I am honored that you have come here to spend your recreational time with me.

Greeting to all! This is your friend and teacher Welmek. I am pleased to see you on this Friday evening, for in your [[culture]] this has been an evening of [[play]]; and I am [[honored]] that you have come here to spend your recreational time with me.

===Lesson===

===Lesson===

Spiritual living has its moments of challenge, especially when you are confronted with a task you have not faced before and applied certain spiritual principles and skills you have learned. But life in the spirit is also playful and refreshing. It enlivens the soul. It brings new depth of meaning and value to your life. And are not all of these elating to the spirit? So it is in this light I wish to continue our topic tonight on Inspired Living.

Spiritual living has its moments of [[challenge]], especially when you are confronted with a task you have not faced before and applied certain spiritual [[principles]] and [[skills]] you have learned. But life in the spirit is also playful and refreshing. It enlivens [[the soul]]. It brings new depth of [[meaning]] and [[value]] to your life. And are not all of these elating to the spirit? So it is in this light I wish to continue our topic tonight on Inspired Living.

It is this sense of joy and lightheartedness that I wish for you to experience; wish for you to incorporate more fully. The drudgery and monotony of living on this planet can sometimes dull or dim the senses. It casts a pall upon the spirit, and further distances you between your relationship with the Father, and diminishes a certain willingness to live. This is a spirit poison.

It is this sense of [[joy]] and lightheartedness that I wish for you to [[experience]]; wish for you to incorporate more fully. The [[drudgery]] and monotony of living on this planet can sometimes dull or dim the [[senses]]. It casts a pall upon the [[spirit]], and further distances you between your [[relationship]] with [[the Father]], and diminishes a certain willingness to live. This is a [[spirit poison]].

And so tonight I wish to encourage the idea of inspired living as a sense of playfulness, even in the midst of your day-to-day routine. Even in the midst of what you might consider to be mundane and repetitious tasks. Even in the midst of doing things that you find distasteful and disheartening. This is the secret to finding happiness in life - to make joy out of something where you see or sense a lack of energy and life and vitality.

And so tonight I wish to [[encourage]] the idea of inspired living as a sense of [[playfulness]], even in the midst of your day-to-day [[routine]]. Even in the midst of what you might consider to be [[mundane]] and repetitious tasks. Even in the midst of doing things that you find distasteful and disheartening. This is the [[secret]] to finding [[happiness]] in life - to make joy out of something where you see or sense a lack of [[energy]] and life and [[vitality]].

So, my friends are you interested experiencing this tonight? (All say yes or lead on.) I thought you would enjoy this one. I did understand that you would all identify with what I was speaking of in this drudgery of life.

So, my friends are you interested experiencing this tonight? (All say yes or lead on.) I thought you would enjoy this one. I did [[understand]] that you would all identify with what I was speaking of in this drudgery of life.

So let us take this idea into the stillness. Find the one thing in your life that you dread to do. I'm sure it will not be difficult to recall this. But allow yourself to sense this now. And again, it is not so much the task or idea that I am interested in; it is what the feeling that that evokes in you is. So let yourself experience this, and when you have had enough of it, please share that feeling with me. (Pause.)

So let us take this [[idea]] into the [[stillness]]. Find the one thing in your life that you dread to do. I'm sure it will not be [[difficult]] to recall this. But allow yourself to sense this now. And again, it is not so much the task or [[idea]] that I am interested in; it is what the feeling that that evokes in you is. So let yourself [[experience]] this, and when you have had enough of it, please share that [[feeling]] with me. (Pause.)

===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

Student: What I would like to do is to organize my apartment. I have many books and magazines and articles. And what comes up for me is it's an impossible task. I have no system devised. So it comes up for me, that when I contemplate doing that, I either don't have the energy or the method.

Student: What I would like to do is to [[organize]] my apartment. I have many [[books]] and magazines and articles. And what comes up for me is it's an impossible task. I have no [[system]] devised. So it comes up for me, that when I contemplate doing that, I either don't have the [[energy]] or the [[method]].

Welmek: And would you say you sense mental inertia? (Yes.) And would you also sense a physical inertia as well? (Yes.) Thank you.

Welmek: And would you say you sense mental [[inertia]]? (Yes.) And would you also sense a physical inertia as well? (Yes.) Thank you.

Student: Welmek, for me it's the last several months have been in a kind of classical situation of one foot in the boat and one foot on the dock.

Student: Welmek, for me it's the last several months have been in a kind of classical situation of one foot in the boat and one foot on the dock.

Being caught in transition, and not knowing, not having the ability to assess sometimes, where I am. Feeling tired or with a certain mental inertia, and not knowing whether it's a kind of laziness or actually a need for rest, because I am deeply involved in some very interesting but very exhausting work. It's that not knowingness leads me from a sense of guilt of just being lazy, clear to the other extreme of thinking I'm getting a lot done and I just need to rest. So this kind of dread has been in my life lately. And I don't even know but what it's because I've been praying for more perfection hunger. And maybe that's just really kicking in?

Being caught in [[transition]], and not knowing, not having the [[ability]] to assess sometimes, where I am. [[Feeling]] [[tired]] or with a certain mental inertia, and not knowing whether it's a kind of [[laziness]] or actually a need for [[rest]], because I am deeply involved in some very interesting but very exhausting work. It's that not knowingness leads me from a sense of [[guilt]] of just being lazy, clear to the other [[extreme]] of thinking I'm getting a lot done and I just need to rest. So this kind of dread has been in my life lately. And I don't even know but what it's because I've been praying for more [[perfection]] hunger. And maybe that's just really kicking in?

Welmek: I would say that you are experiencing a good dose of perfection hunger. But I will address everyone's comments in a few moments, after everyone who wishes to, has shared.

Welmek: I would say that you are experiencing a good dose of [[perfection]] [[hunger]]. But I will address everyone's comments in a few moments, after everyone who wishes to, has shared.

Student: Welmek, I've been experiencing dread and inertia and being uninspired, and maybe even a little depressed. I'm getting a little of that lately. And the feelings, the sources are many, like fear, and it feels uninspired, and lazy and stagnant. And I'm not sure how to pull myself up by my bootstraps as they say. It's hard to shake it off right now, so I'm looking forward to becoming inspired.

Student: Welmek, I've been experiencing dread and [[inertia]] and being uninspired, and maybe even a little [[depressed]]. I'm getting a little of that lately. And the [[feelings]], the sources are many, like [[fear]], and it feels uninspired, and lazy and [[stagnant]]. And I'm not sure how to pull myself up by my bootstraps as they say. It's hard to shake it off right now, so I'm looking forward to [[becoming]] [[inspired]].

Welmek: And I hope that if you bear with this exercise, you will find that which you seek at the end.

Welmek: And I [[hope]] that if you bear with this [[exercise]], you will find that which you seek at the end.

Student: Welmek, I couldn't actually think of something that I dreaded. So I thought that, I was thinking of how I detested doing my laundry. But that didn't seem to be deep enough for this exercise, but then I realized there is something that I dread; and that is, I dread preaching in church. And I have considerable anxiety about that. So I think that's a good one for this exercise.

Student: Welmek, I couldn't actually think of something that I dreaded. So I thought that, I was [[thinking]] of how I detested doing my laundry. But that didn't seem to be deep enough for this [[exercise]], but then I realized there is something that I dread; and that is, I dread [[preaching]] in church. And I have considerable [[anxiety]] about that. So I think that's a good one for this exercise.

Welmek: I was referring to some of the more physical tasks at hand, but for this purpose of this exercise, we can address both levels. For what it is that is preventing you from sensing this inspiration whether it is occurring for something that has spiritual significance, or is only a passing task of material maintenance, does not really matter. It is the way you feel; it is the way you respond to it - whether you have a sense of vitality, or whether you have a sense of avoidance. So we will address this later in our discussion. Are there other comments?

Welmek: I was referring to some of the more physical tasks at hand, but for this [[purpose]] of this exercise, we can address both levels. For what it is that is preventing you from sensing this [[inspiration]] whether it is occurring for something that has [[spiritual]] significance, or is only a passing task of material [[maintenance]], does not really matter. It is the way you feel; it is the way you respond to it - whether you have a sense of [[vitality]], or whether you have a sense of [[avoidance]]. So we will address this later in our [[discussion]]. Are there other comments?

Student: Yes Welmek, I feel that I tend to - as I get older, it seems as the testosterone level goes down, my gregarious instinct goes up, and I dread separation more. So I notice that more - leaving work crews at the railroad, and with my kids and my older daughter. Although I can see it as an inspiration in long-suffering or something like that, but still I think that feeling of dread or a lessening is difficult. (Thank you.)

Student: Yes Welmek, I feel that I tend to - as I get older, it seems as the [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Testosterone testosterone] level goes down, my [[gregarious]] [[instinct]] goes up, and I dread [[separation]] more. So I notice that more - leaving work crews at the railroad, and with my kids and my older daughter. Although I can see it as an [[inspiration]] in long-suffering or something like that, but still I think that [[feeling]] of dread or a lessening is [[difficult]]. (Thank you.)

Student: Yes, Welmek, the only time I feel any sense of dread, as you put it, is if I overwork myself. If I overextend myself and don't take care of my other needs - spiritual and emotional and physical. And then sometimes in the morning - so I've got to go back to work after working a ten-hour day, the day before. So, but if I do stillness beforehand, then the dread seems to go away. But I do notice I do get a sense of frustration if I overextend, especially like today, if I set myself out to only work a certain amount of hours so that I may have some time before coming here - this is the way I'm going to do other things for me, and I find myself not obliging myself, and I'm rushing around to get here, then that's when I feel a sense of frustration.

Student: Yes, Welmek, the only time I feel any sense of dread, as you put it, is if I overwork myself. If I overextend myself and don't take [[care]] of my other needs - [[spiritual]] and [[emotional]] and [[physical]]. And then sometimes in the morning - so I've got to go back to work after working a ten-hour day, the day before. So, but if I do [[stillness]] beforehand, then the dread seems to go away. But I do notice I do get a sense of [[frustration]] if I overextend, especially like today, if I set myself out to only work a certain amount of hours so that I may have some time before coming here - this is the way I'm going to do other things for me, and I find myself not obliging myself, and I'm rushing around to get here, then that's when I feel a sense of frustration.

Welmek: Thank you. Thank you all for your honesty in sharing something that has been rather unsavory in your lives. For as I said, there are many things in life that leave a bad taste in your mouth, and what I would like to do is to whet your appetite for continuous life in tasting the beauty and the joy that is yours when you live in alignment with the spirit in the Father's love and in the Father's will for you. It is a quite distinct differentiation, and I wish now to focus on this distinction with you.

Welmek: Thank you. Thank you all for your [[honesty]] in [[sharing]] something that has been rather unsavory in your lives. For as I said, there are many things in life that leave a bad [[taste]] in your mouth, and what I would like to do is to whet your appetite for continuous life in tasting the [[beauty]] and the [[joy]] that is yours when you live in [[alignment]] with [[Ta|the spirit]] in the Father's love and in the Father's will for you. It is a quite distinct [[differentiation]], and I wish now to [[focus]] on this distinction with you.

There are times in life when you must do things for your material maintenance - managing your needs - maintaining a balance in your physical body, in your outer life, in the setting you live in, maintaining certain tasks. There is a balance between your mental activity and mental relaxation. There is a balance between spiritual exertion and spiritual replenishment. And all of these are done in an environment of your inner life as juxtaposed with your outer life - the life you live and interact with others. So there is this constant interplay at these various levels and you can see that maintaining balance is quite an exquisite art.

There are times in life when you must do things for your [[material]] [[maintenance]] - managing your needs - maintaining a [[balance]] in your physical [[body]], in your outer life, in the setting you live in, maintaining certain tasks. There is a balance between your mental activity and mental [[relaxation]]. There is a balance between spiritual exertion and spiritual replenishment. And all of these are done in an environment of your [[inner life]] as [[juxtaposed]] with your outer life - the life you live and [[interact]] with others. So there is this constant interplay at these various levels and you can see that maintaining [[balance]] is quite an exquisite art.

And as you know from reading your Urantia text, there is one person who was able to deftly balance this at all times, for He achieved that symmetry and harmony of His personality attributes, that afforded Him this juxtaposition between spiritual intake and outtake, physical intake and out-take, and mental intake and out-take. And He did this in an attitude of love and joy - for were not His words, "Be of good cheer", the motto he would most share with his friends and apostles? These were His words - to look on the bright side; to be hopeful and optimistic. And I wish you now to take this idea be of good cheer into the stillness; and make your appeal directly to the human Jesus now - the one who understands this delicate balance of maintaining the inspiration of living in the Father's love while living a very mundane and routine and uncertain physical life.

And as you know from [[reading]] your [[Urantia text]], there is one person who was able to deftly [[balance]] this at all times, for He achieved that [[symmetry]] and [[harmony]] of His [[personality]] [[attributes]], that afforded Him this [[juxtaposition]] between spiritual intake and outtake, physical intake and out-take, and mental intake and out-take. And He did this in an [[attitude]] of [[love]] and [[joy]] - for were not His words, "Be of good cheer", the [[motto]] he would most share with his friends and [[apostles]]? These were His words - to look on the bright side; to be hopeful and [[optimistic]]. And I wish you now to take this idea be of good cheer into the [[stillness]]; and make your appeal directly to the human [[Jesus]] now - the one who [[understands]] this delicate balance of maintaining the [[inspiration]] of living in the Father's love while living a very [[mundane]] and routine and uncertain physical life.

Take this idea of the activity that you shared with me and ask Jesus now to shine His light on this - to take your hand and to show you how to relate to this that will turn the dread to an opportunity to experience joy, and a greater level of forward motion to move you out of your spiritual and mental inertia into a place of rigorous faith growth and soul achievement. And when you feel that you have received instruction from the Master, please share that with me. (Pause.)

Take this [[idea]] of the activity that you shared with me and ask [[Jesus]] now to shine His [[light]] on this - to take your hand and to show you how to relate to this that will turn the dread to an [[opportunity]] to experience joy, and a greater level of forward [[motion]] to move you out of your spiritual and mental [[inertia]] into a place of rigorous [[faith]] growth and [[soul]] achievement. And when you feel that you have received instruction from the Master, please share that with me. (Pause.)

Student: I'm not clear on the instructions. Are we supposed focus on the issue we have or on how Jesus helps us to be of good cheer?

Student: I'm not clear on the instructions. Are we supposed [[focus]] on the issue we have or on how Jesus helps us to be of good cheer?

Welmek: The instruction is to ask Jesus now to show you how to look at this situation that will give you the attitude of cheerful or joyful while you are doing it. (Thank you.)

Welmek: The instruction is to ask Jesus now to show you how to look at this situation that will give you the [[attitude]] of cheerful or joyful while you are doing it. (Thank you.)

Student: Welmek, I think I have the answer to this. I've been working on this lately, and at church it has opened us up more to Jesus' heart warmth. And it seems that the solution for me, and I realize I've done it in the past - when I have a dread of separation and consequently or possibly along with it a dread of rejection, I can use that as a catalyst, as you've said in other sessions, for my missionary zeal which is a big thrill for me, and aggressive outreach. And I know that formula works; it's just a matter of making it more of a habit.

Student: Welmek, I think I have the answer to this. I've been working on this lately, and at [[church]] it has opened us up more to Jesus' [[heart]] warmth. And it seems that the solution for me, and I realize I've done it in the past - when I have a dread of [[separation]] and consequently or possibly along with it a dread of [[rejection]], I can use that as a [[catalyst]], as you've said in other sessions, for my missionary [[zeal]] which is a big thrill for me, and aggressive [[outreach]]. And I know that [[formula]] works; it's just a matter of making it more of a [[habit]].

And also possibly from doing autopsies, realize it's not to the death - this rejection may hurt, or this threat of separation, but it's not to the death, and it whets the appetite for service. I'm thankful for this session tonight to make that more clear in my own mind.

And also possibly from doing autopsies, realize it's not to the [[death]] - this rejection may hurt, or this threat of separation, but it's not to the death, and it whets the appetite for [[service]]. I'm thankful for this session tonight to make that more clear in my own mind.

Welmek: So would you say that you have in your own experience turned to the Master in an attempt to ameliorate the feelings of separation you experience when you in the midst of this longing to be reconnected?

Welmek: So would you say that you have in your own [[experience]] turned to [[the Master]] in an attempt to ameliorate the [[feelings]] of [[separation]] you experience when you in the midst of this longing to be reconnected?

Student: Yes, and I think it brought out early, a prayer from childhood - a Catholic prayer, "I offer up my works, joys, and sufferings of the day". It's one of the good things about Catholic methodology in that you dare to offer up your sufferings and mistakes as well to Jesus; and that brings out the warmth of Jesus, and the even the humanness.

Student: Yes, and I think it brought out early, a [[prayer]] from [[childhood]] - a [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roman_catholicism Catholic prayer], "I offer up my works, joys, and sufferings of the day". It's one of the good things about Catholic [[methodology]] in that you dare to offer up your sufferings and mistakes as well to Jesus; and that brings out the warmth of Jesus, and the even the humanness.

Welmek: And what would you say in your experience is a trigger for you to remember to turn to Jesus in the midst of this anxious feeling of separation?

Welmek: And what would you say in your [[experience]] is a trigger for you to remember to turn to [[Jesus]] in the midst of this [[anxious]] feeling of separation?

Student: Well, it's that feeling right in the heart that gee, there's nothing more I can do here to bring spiritual joy. It's almost - the pain is almost the solution.

Student: Well, it's that [[feeling]] right in the [[heart]] that gee, there's nothing more I can do here to bring spiritual joy. It's almost - the [[pain]] is almost the solution.

Welmek: So the pain is for you a trigger to remember to appeal to the Master? (Yes, I think so.)

Welmek: So the pain is for you a trigger to remember to [[appeal]] to [[the Master]]? (Yes, I think so.)

Welmek: This is a significant insight. For all of you will experience some kind of discomfort at times, whether it is emotional or actually physical. But there is a trigger in the pain response that indicates in your mind and in your brain that something is out of alignment with that of the Father's will for me. Pain is not a punishment, much as your psychological therapies of punishment and reward have been depicted, but it is a reminder to you that you have stepped out of the alignment with God's wish for your life.

Welmek: This is a significant [[insight]]. For all of you will [[experience]] some kind of discomfort at times, whether it is [[emotional]] or actually physical. But there is a trigger in the pain response that indicates in your [[mind]] and in your [[brain]] that something is out of [[alignment]] with that of the Father's will for me. Pain is not a punishment, much as your [[psychological]] therapies of punishment and reward have been depicted, but it is a reminder to you that you have stepped out of the alignment with God's wish for your life.

I would like you to think about this for a moment: Pain is a reminder that I have stepped out of God's wish for my life. (Pause.) While this answer is directed to V., it applies to all of you. When you are in the stillness time, ask now for a deeper conscious awareness now to be impressed upon your mind of this statement. That the discomfort is only a reminder that you have stepped out of the Father's will, and for you to return to the embrace of Jesus, so that you can feel His response, His warmth, His Love, and He will then be able to connect that which is His to give and yours to receive within you. Use this now as a deeper understanding and enriched tool so that you can overcome these pangs of separation, and even isolation that you may feel at times. Do you understand? (All say yes.) And do you need any further clarification or elaboration on this point tonight?

I would like you to think about this for a moment: [[Pain]] is a reminder that I have stepped out of God's wish for my life. (Pause.) While this answer is directed to V., it applies to all of you. When you are in the [[stillness]] time, ask now for a deeper [[conscious]] awareness now to be impressed upon your [[mind]] of this statement. That the discomfort is only a reminder that you have stepped out of the Father's will, and for you to return to the [[embrace]] of [[Jesus]], so that you can feel His response, His warmth, His Love, and He will then be able to connect that which is His to give and yours to [[receive]] within you. Use this now as a deeper [[understanding]] and enriched tool so that you can overcome these pangs of separation, and even [[isolation]] that you may feel at times. Do you understand? (All say yes.) And do you need any further clarification or elaboration on this point tonight?

Student: Welmek, do we find this in stillness or in exploring interactions with the outside world?

Student: Welmek, do we find this in [[stillness]] or in exploring [[interactions]] with the outside world?

Welmek: I would say that it is both. For it will be your experiences that will trigger certain responses within you; either that of discomfort or that of alignment, and you will develop your sensing abilities to the point where you can tell one from the other quite readily.

Welmek: I would say that it is both. For it will be your [[experiences]] that will trigger certain responses within you; either that of discomfort or that of [[alignment]], and you will develop your sensing [[abilities]] to the point where you can tell one from the other quite readily.

However, in the stillness, while the mind is generally relaxed and receptive your spirit has a great sense and opportunity to impress upon your mind that which it can bring to help you remedy the situation. And that, being the conscious reminder to ask to receive from Michael, from Jesus, what it is that will move you forward will change your attitude and perspective while you are living through the experience. Do you see the distinction I am making here? (I think so? It's sinking in.) How may I further clarify this for you this evening?

However, in the [[stillness]], while the mind is generally relaxed and [[receptive]] your spirit has a great sense and [[opportunity]] to impress upon your mind that which it can bring to help you remedy the situation. And that, being the [[conscious]] reminder to ask to [[receive]] from Michael, from Jesus, what it is that will move you forward will change your [[attitude]] and perspective while you are living through the [[experience]]. Do you see the distinction I am making here? (I think so? It's sinking in.) How may I further [[clarify]] this for you this evening?

Student: Well, if I'm experiencing inertia, for instance, and a lack of interest in moving forward in any way, I guess that I can receive inspiration through silence, and instructions during silence on how to manifest in the world more progressive behaviors?

Student: Well, if I'm experiencing [[inertia]], for instance, and a lack of interest in moving forward in any way, I guess that I can receive [[inspiration]] through [[silence]], and instructions during silence on how to [[manifest]] in the world more [[progressive]] behaviors?

Welmek: A few moments ago when I instructed all of you to ask Michael to help you through this experience of inertia and drudgery, did you experience an alleviation of this unpleasant feeling?

Welmek: A few moments ago when I instructed all of you to ask [[Michael]] to help you through this [[experience]] of inertia and drudgery, did you experience an alleviation of this unpleasant [[feeling]]?

Student: Well in my case, I felt a certain motivation to try to find love in my life, and to create it by serving others in some sense and thereby creating an energy flow that was beneficial to both the other being and myself.

Student: Well in my case, I felt a certain [[motivation]] to try to find love in my life, and to create it by serving others in some sense and thereby creating an energy [[flow]] that was beneficial to both the other being and myself.

Welmek: So you did get a sense of what it is you could be doing to move you forward? And so you were in stillness for a moment, and you received an insight and guidance, and now it will be your decision whether or not to act upon that and to see what fruits it bears in your outer experience. So I would suggest that you put this to the test now, and you see what this does for you. How does it make you feel while you are interacting with this person as you create this love and service? What does it do to your attitude? What does it do to your sense of being in a fog of spiritual inertia? Does the fog lift, and do you receive more inspiration and motivation?

Welmek: So you did get a sense of what it is you could be doing to move you forward? And so you were in [[stillness]] for a moment, and you [[received]] an [[insight]] and [[guidance]], and now it will be your [[decision]] whether or not to act upon that and to see what fruits it bears in your outer [[experience]]. So I would suggest that you put this to the test now, and you see what this does for you. How does it make you feel while you are interacting with this person as you create this love and [[service]]? What does it do to your [[attitude]]? What does it do to your sense of being in a fog of spiritual [[inertia]]? Does the fog lift, and do you receive more inspiration and [[motivation]]?

These are the kinds of ideas and feelings to sense while you are living through them. And then when you have a moment to reflect upon this, take this into the stillness and ask for your spirit to integrate this experience into you more fully, and allow the deeper and enriched meanings of what you have witnessed to in your life to take over and blend into your soul more harmoniously.

These are the kinds of [[ideas]] and [[feelings]] to sense while you are living through them. And then when you have a moment to [[reflect]] upon this, take this into the stillness and ask for [[your spirit]] to [[integrate]] this experience into you more fully, and allow the deeper and enriched [[meanings]] of what you have witnessed to in your life to take over and blend into [[your soul]] more harmoniously.

I want you to think about this this week as you re-read this transcript and this response to you. This is a challenge of daily living - to continually strive to do this in your habits of thinking. And as we spoke last week, you are exchanging the old habits for the new. You are asking for the habits that God wants you to have now to be more prevalent in your life. And you are allowing the new habits to take root in you so that they eventually become as effortless as breathing. Do you understand my meaning?

I want you to think about this this week as you re-[[read]] this [[transcript]] and this response to you. This is a [[challenge]] of daily living - to continually strive to do this in your [[habits]] of [[thinking]]. And as we spoke last week, you are exchanging the old habits for the new. You are asking for the habits that God wants you to have now to be more prevalent in your life. And you are allowing the new habits to take root in you so that they [[eventually]] become as effortless as [[breathing]]. Do you understand my meaning?

Student: Yes, I thing so, and I see that there's at least a brief period of feeling kind of guilty about where I have been, and a little bit of unpleasant feeling looking back on that. And so it's a minor challenge, but I think it even helps to serve to establish a new reality, even more. Perhaps that's the value of guilt, a form of looking in the past, and helping the change.

Student: Yes, I think so, and I see that there's at least a brief period of feeling kind of [[guilty]] about where I have been, and a little bit of unpleasant [[feeling]] looking back on that. And so it's a minor challenge, but I think it even helps to serve to establish a new [[reality]], even more. Perhaps that's the [[value]] of [[guilt]], a form of looking in the past, and helping the [[change]].

Welmek: I would caution you on the use of the word guilt, for it has a somewhat devaluing notion in the human psyche. It is good to reflect upon past behavior and to evaluate it. But if you judge yourself, which is part of the makeup of guilt, then you will diminish your sense of self-respect. And while it is always good to be objective about your shortcomings, the best way for you to re-evaluate and re-establish your sense of self-respect is to ask to see yourself from the Father's eyes. For He does not judge you, and He in His Love understands the difficulties that you face. And when you see yourself from this perspective, you will realize that your mistakes are understandable and correctable. And there is no reason to assess yourself so harshly as to produce those guilt feelings that so demean you. Do you understand? (Yes, thank you. It's very illuminating!)

Welmek: I would [[caution]] you on the use of the word [[guilt]], for it has a somewhat devaluing notion in the human [[psyche]]. It is good to reflect upon past [[behavior]] and to [[evaluate]] it. But if you judge yourself, which is part of the makeup of guilt, then you will diminish your sense of self-[[respect]]. And while it is always good to be [[objective]] about your shortcomings, the best way for you to re-evaluate and re-establish your sense of self-respect is to ask to see yourself from [[the Father]]'s eyes. For He does not judge you, and He in His Love [[understands]] the [[difficulties]] that you face. And when you see yourself from this [[perspective]], you will realize that your mistakes are understandable and correctable. And there is no reason to assess yourself so harshly as to produce those [[guilt]] [[feelings]] that so demean you. Do you understand? (Yes, thank you. It's very [[illuminating]]!)

Student: Welmek this is J. Thank you so much, for what you mentioned to C. addresses my situation. Everybody here is mirrored with certain kinds of optical illusions - checkered patterns of light and shade, which could be seen in two different ways, but not at the same time. And I have the same problem of focusing sometimes on the cutting edge of evolution; trying to evolve and grow, focusing on that cutting edge and loosing sight and feeling of all - and appreciation especially - that I have done, and all the distance I have come. So I'm not sure quite how to do them both at the same time. Even my dancing instructor was saying, you have to be careful, because ambition is good, it keeps moving you ahead, but you can get so ambitious that it takes all the fun out of it. You get so concentrated on being the better dancer that you loose ability just to enjoy what you've already figured out.

Student: Welmek this is J. Thank you so much, for what you mentioned to C. addresses my situation. Everybody here is mirrored with certain kinds of optical [[illusions]] - checkered [[patterns]] of [[light]] and [[shade]], which could be seen in two different ways, but not at the same time. And I have the same [[problem]] of [[focusing]] sometimes on the cutting edge of [[evolution]]; trying to evolve and grow, focusing on that cutting edge and loosing sight and [[feeling]] of all - and appreciation especially - that I have done, and all the distance I have come. So I'm not sure quite how to do them both at the same time. Even my [[dancing]] instructor was saying, you have to be careful, because [[ambition]] is good, it keeps moving you ahead, but you can get so ambitious that it takes all the fun out of it. You get so [[concentrated]] on being the better dancer that you loose ability just to enjoy what you've already figured out.

Welmek: And there's a rhythm, is there not, in this dancing? And there is a time to learn new steps, and to fumble over your feet for a time while you are allowing the circuits of your memory to intersect in your mental corridors. And there will be a time of mastery, when your body responds to your commands and you move with grace and ease across the floor.

Welmek: And there's a [[rhythm]], is there not, in this dancing? And there is a time to learn new [[steps]], and to fumble over your feet for a time while you are allowing [[the circuits]] of your [[memory]] to intersect in your mental corridors. And there will be a time of mastery, when your body responds to your [[commands]] and you move with [[grace]] and ease across the floor.

And always will there be in your life, this rhythm of learning and mastering. And so you will not look at the situation from quite the same perspective, will you? For you do not see yourself in the same way when you are learning, as when you are mastering at this point-in-time. But in adopting a more fluid and more bird's-eye vantage point view of your life; that to know that this is part of the learning process: this time of stumbling and bumbling, and the time of effortless mastery and grace.

And always will there be in your [[life]], this [[rhythm]] of learning and mastering. And so you will not look at the situation from quite the same [[perspective]], will you? For you do not see yourself in the same way when you are learning, as when you are mastering at this point-in-time. But in adopting a more [[fluid]] and more bird's-eye vantage point view of your life; that to know that this is part of the learning [[process]]: this time of stumbling and bumbling, and the time of effortless mastery and grace.

So in your own mind's-eye, begin to see the two levels of achievement, and to look upon them with equal pleasure, and to know this is how you learn; this is how you grow. And so you must never evaluate your sense of self because you have not mastered anything right at that moment. Allow yourself the time you need to grow into the experience in this natural way. And I think, if you can begin to see yourself from this higher perspective, you will be able to see how you can achieve, one with the other, in this one fluid motion. Do you understand?

So in your own [[mind's-eye]], begin to see the two levels of [[achievement]], and to look upon them with [[equal]] [[pleasure]], and to know this is how you learn; this is how you [[grow]]. And so you must never [[evaluate]] your sense of [[self]] because you have not mastered anything right at that moment. Allow yourself the time you need to [[grow]] into the [[experience]] in this natural way. And I think, if you can begin to see yourself from this higher [[perspective]], you will be able to see how you can [[achieve]], one with the other, in this one fluid motion. Do you understand?

Student: I think so, Welmek, because my feeling during the exercise, was a greater flexibility to not get stuck in this analytical mode and be so analytical. It's just like a surgeon who's knife can only cut, can't heal. I have to be flexible somehow or other to go from this analytical.

Student: I think so, Welmek, because my [[feeling]] during the [[exercise]], was a greater [[flexibility]] to not get stuck in this [[analytical]] mode and be so analytical. It's just like a [[surgeon]] who's knife can only cut, can't heal. I have to be flexible somehow or other to go from this analytical.

It's also like this inner perfection-hunger. As soon as you get hit with a dose of perfection-hunger, you notice all your imperfections. And there is a big wart on the end of your nose. And what do you do about it? It's like C. said, it's hard not to get a guilt then, because all of a sudden all of your imperfections are manifest. But I think with this bird's-eye view you mentioned, Welmek, you can see that, first of all, accept and actually embrace with joy the perception, because now you can actually do something about it; you can move ahead. Your not caught in an unconscious (Tape ends.)

It's also like this inner [[perfection]]-[[hunger]]. As soon as you get hit with a dose of perfection-hunger, you notice all your imperfections. And there is a big wart on the end of your nose. And what do you do about it? It's like C. said, it's hard not to get a [[guilt]] then, because all of a sudden all of your imperfections are [[manifest]]. But I think with this bird's-eye view you mentioned, Welmek, you can see that, first of all, [[accept]] and actually [[embrace]] with [[joy]] the [[perception]], because now you can actually do something about it; you can move ahead. Your not caught in an [[unconscious]] (Tape ends.)

Welmek: My friend, in the perfecting process, there is beauty in the imperfect being, for is this not a part of God's plan, to be a creature of evolutionary status - to be moving forward in greater harmonization of all that the Father is? And so while you identify with those warts and bumps as you say you see, the Father sees this also, but He sees what the warts and the bumps produce, and there is great, great beauty in the becoming; great beauty in the striving; great beauty in being just as you are now, because each day you grow more beautiful. See the beauty where you are each moment, and appreciate that as part of the Father's plan for you as well.

Welmek: My friend, in the [[perfecting]] [[process]], there is [[beauty]] in the imperfect being, for is this not a part of God's plan, to be a creature of [[evolutionary]] status - to be moving forward in greater [[harmonization]] of all that the Father is? And so while you identify with those warts and bumps as you say you see, [[the Father]] sees this also, but He sees what the warts and the bumps produce, and there is great, great [[beauty]] in the [[becoming]]; great beauty in the striving; great beauty in being just as you are now, because each day you grow more beautiful. See the beauty where you are each moment, and [[appreciate]] that as part of the Father's plan for you as well.

You will only be able to see this, if you see yourself from the Father's perspective. The materialistic influences of your life and your culture have cast, I would say, a negative look on anything that is not perfect or right. But the Father in His wisdom, knows that evolutionary creatures only reach perfection through a long and dedicated process of refinement and striving. And since He sees you as beautiful in the becoming, He asks of this for you too to adopt His perspective. I hope you will consider this very deeply this week as you go about your daily activities. For I do believe that it will help you diminish some of these feelings of unworthiness or guilt that you may still harbor within you. For it is not God's plan for you to continually to feel like this, for this is not how He sees you at all. Does this help? (Yes! Thank you Welmek. Yes, it does!)

You will only be able to see this, if you see yourself from [[the Father]]'s [[perspective]]. The [[materialistic]] influences of your life and your [[culture]] have cast, I would say, a [[negative]] look on anything that is not [[perfect]] or right. But the Father in His [[wisdom]], knows that evolutionary creatures only reach perfection through a long and [[dedicated]] [[process]] of refinement and striving. And since He sees you as beautiful in the [[becoming]], He asks of this for you too to adopt His [[perspective]]. I hope you will consider this very deeply this week as you go about your daily activities. For I do believe that it will help you diminish some of these [[feelings]] of unworthiness or [[guilt]] that you may still harbor within you. For it is not God's plan for you to continually to feel like this, for this is not how He sees you at all. Does this help? (Yes! Thank you Welmek. Yes, it does!)

Are there any other experiences that you wish to share with me in this exercise of asking Jesus to help you be cheerful as you go about your tasks?

Are there any other experiences that you wish to [[share]] with me in this exercise of asking [[Jesus]] to help you be cheerful as you go about your tasks?

Student: Yes, I must say, I have a method, all I need to do is take a very small bit that I can organize every day. I've had that in my head for years and years and years, but it's very, very simple - a little bit, no matter how small it is, until I will have this place organized. It will also give me a lot of satisfaction, because I have a lot of energy committed into those books and articles. He's basically saying, it's not complicated, just do a little bit each day. And that rings true to me.

Student: Yes, I must say, I have a [[method]], all I need to do is take a very small bit that I can [[organize]] every day. I've had that in my head for years and years and years, but it's very, very [[simple]] - a little bit, no matter how small it is, until I will have this place organized. It will also give me a lot of [[satisfaction]], because I have a lot of energy committed into those books and articles. He's basically saying, it's not [[complicated]], just do a little bit each day. And that rings true to me.

Welmek: When you attempt any task, and you are not sure how to accomplish this, you can always go directly to Jesus and ask Him to assist you. You have the dual benefit of divine-human experience that will give you a twofold understanding of the best way to do things. The human Jesus was very adept at organizing and executing his work. He was a highly disciplined and skilled craftsman, and so he well understood the demands of big projects and how to complete them in a timely fashion.

Welmek: When you attempt any task, and you are not sure how to accomplish this, you can always go directly to Jesus and ask Him to assist you. You have the dual benefit of [[divine]]-[[human]] [[experience]] that will give you a twofold [[understanding]] of the best way to do things. The human Jesus was very adept at organizing and executing his work. He was a highly [[disciplined]] and skilled craftsman, and so he well understood the demands of big projects and how to complete them in a timely fashion.

And then, of course, you have the perspective of the Divine Michael, who is the Creator of the universe, and is very well equipped to handle all of the problems inherent in running a large organization. So with all of this assistance at hand, you only need to go within and ask Him, "Will you give me a hand with this? I do not know how to tackle this project", and He will gladly show you. He will hold your hand, guide your hand, and give you the stamina and the fortitude you need to move through the project with ease and good cheer. You will find that the task is completed quite within an efficient time frame. And you might find yourself even enjoying yourself immensely while you are doing it.

And then, of course, you have the [[perspective]] of the Divine [[Michael]], who is the Creator of the universe, and is very well equipped to handle all of the [[problems]] inherent in running a large [[organization]]. So with all of this [[assistance]] at hand, you only need to go within and ask Him, "Will you give me a hand with this? I do not know how to tackle this project", and He will gladly show you. He will hold your hand, [[guide]] your hand, and give you the [[stamina]] and the [[fortitude]] you need to move through the project with ease and good cheer. You will find that the task is completed quite within an [[efficient]] time frame. And you might find yourself even enjoying yourself immensely while you are doing it.

What will serve in your mind as an effective reminder for you to turn to Jesus to ask Him to assist you in this capacity? Do you have an idea what you would use?

What will serve in your mind as an effective reminder for you to turn to Jesus to ask Him to [[assist]] you in this capacity? Do you have an idea what you would use?

Student: Yes, I think I could just have a 2 by 5 card on my desk, which says, "Just ask Jesus".

Student: Yes, I think I could just have a 2 by 5 card on my desk, which says, "Just ask Jesus".

Welmek: He is the universe efficiency expert. So you do not need to go very far to get the perfect and the best way to handle your task. Let Him lovingly guide your hand and embrace you while you are engaged in your work. Does this help? (Thanks)

Welmek: He is the universe [[efficiency]] [[expert]]. So you do not need to go very far to get the perfect and the best way to handle your task. Let Him lovingly [[guide]] your hand and [[embrace]] you while you are engaged in your work. Does this help? (Thanks)

Student: Welmek, I remember in a previous discussion, you mentioned how stress and anxiety are also indicators of not being in alignment with the Father. And that really stayed with me. And so no matter how rushed I am in the morning to get to work, I always put aside five minutes to a half-hour or how long it takes to commune with the Father, and to be in stillness or to pray, or even to worship as whatever moves me. And it seems to set me right in going and meeting the day. And I always tell my roommate when we climb into the truck, "another day in Paradise", and he laughs. But when I do feel those moments like as the day drags on, I do stop for a moment, and Jesus mentioned this to me again, just to go into the stillness, and just to stop and look around me, and take in the beauty that is around me in nature.

Student: Welmek, I remember in a previous [[discussion]], you mentioned how [[stress]] and [[anxiety]] are also indicators of not being in [[alignment]] with the Father. And that really stayed with me. And so no matter how rushed I am in the morning to get to work, I always put aside five minutes to a half-hour or how long it takes to [[commune]] with the Father, and to be in [[stillness]] or to pray, or even to worship as whatever moves me. And it seems to set me right in going and meeting the day. And I always tell my roommate when we climb into the truck, "another day in [[Paradise]]", and he laughs. But when I do feel those moments like as the day drags on, I do stop for a moment, and [[Jesus]] mentioned this to me again, just to go into the stillness, and just to stop and look around me, and take in the [[beauty]] that is around me in [[nature]].

And also I use humor a lot to kind of get me through that frustration or dread, as you call it; and it seems to lift me up into a greater, "this recharges me", so-to-speak. And I know this job will get done, and I will get my needs met in time. So that's it.

And also I use [[humor]] a lot to kind of get me through that [[frustration]] or dread, as you call it; and it seems to lift me up into a greater, "this recharges me", so-to-speak. And I know this job will get done, and I will get my needs met in time. So that's it.

Welmek: You are very blessed, my friend, to have your work in a beautiful environment with the flowers and plants and the vegetables you so lovingly tend.

Welmek: You are very [[blessed]], my friend, to have your work in a [[beautiful]] environment with the flowers and plants and the vegetables you so lovingly tend.

As you minister to these glorious manifestations of the universe, allow the essence of the beauty to echo in your soul the patterns of the plant's energy and information. For you will find there is great intelligence that is a reflection of higher spiritual laws and representations of the Father's personality. And you will find a great refreshment in this as you touch, smell, see, and ask for this information reflecting of the Father's love and the Father's goodness and the Father's truth in these plants come more deeply into your being, so you will grow more unified in being a child of the planet, and a child of the universe. This will give you great enjoyment throughout your day, for it will stimulate your intellect as well as refresh your soul. And when you do this, all of the problems will begin to align, and you will find that gravity of spirit to propel you to new understanding on how to handle the balance of life. For you will see it in the actual depiction of how this delicate balance between nature and the Father's reflection in it co-mingles together. And you have access and are just as much a part of this as the flowers and plants that you tend. Do you understand my meaning?

As you minister to these [[glorious]] [[manifestations]] of [[the universe]], allow the [[essence]] of the [[beauty]] to [[echo]] in [[your soul]] the patterns of the plant's [[energy]] and [[information]]. For you will find there is great [[intelligence]] that is a reflection of higher spiritual laws and [[representations]] of the [[Father's personality]]. And you will find a great refreshment in this as you touch, smell, see, and ask for this information reflecting of the Father's love and the Father's [[goodness]] and the Father's [[truth]] in these plants come more deeply into your being, so you will grow more unified in being a child of the planet, and a child of [[the universe]]. This will give you great enjoyment throughout your day, for it will [[stimulate]] your [[intellect]] as well as refresh your soul. And when you do this, all of the problems will begin to [[align]], and you will find that [[gravity]] of spirit to propel you to new understanding on how to handle the [[balance]] of life. For you will see it in the actual depiction of how this delicate balance between [[nature]] and the Father's reflection in it co-mingles together. And you have access and are just as much a part of this as the flowers and plants that you tend. Do you understand my meaning?

Student: Yes I do. I had a couple of experiences today where we were at this one house - it was real warm today - and we walked into this one house and there is three peach trees that are growing, and you can just smell the peaches as they are on the tree, and the taste of them was so delicious. And this brings you into a kind of oneness at that moment. And then another time I was cutting back this stem of geraniums, and just the aroma was so intoxicating that it was enjoyable to work even in this heat. And it was the aroma that stayed with me. So I do see what you are saying, and the deeper meaning beyond that.

Student: Yes I do. I had a couple of experiences today where we were at this one house - it was real warm today - and we walked into this one house and there is three peach trees that are growing, and you can just smell the peaches as they are on the tree, and the taste of them was so delicious. And this brings you into a kind of oneness at that moment. And then another time I was cutting back this stem of geraniums, and just the aroma was so intoxicating that it was enjoyable to work even in this heat. And it was the aroma that stayed with me. So I do see what you are saying, and the deeper meaning beyond that.