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===Lesson 22===

===Lesson 22===

(Abraham June 9, 1997)

[[1997-06-09-Give Full Authority to Father|(Abraham June 9, 1997)]]

Q: About two years ago I went on my own. I was either prompted or I had a need to do this. I broke off from the group, but not really. I spent almost three years studying, attending the meetings, a lot of prayer, a lot of *stillness* time, and one night I was in the *stillness* and I felt an urge that I needed to move along. So I took that as it is time to go out and try your wings. These past two years I have been doing that. I have experienced a lot of ups and downs. There has been times when I have been unable to, and currently I am unable to, and I don't know why, when I go into the *stillness* or into prayer my mind--it is like I get shut off. I cannot get into a deep *stillness* or deep prayer. I can do a surface prayer or a surface *stillness*, but to become one with my inner self and with Father, I am unable to do that. So my question is--I need to find that source again. I need to find a way to have that peace of mind I used to have. I don't know if I am using the r!ight words here, but to find a path in to where I can go back in the *stillness*, and I don't know if I was shut off deliberately, or intentionally, or I am to do my own thing for awhile more or what. So that is my question.

Q: About two years ago I went on my own. I was either prompted or I had a need to do this. I broke off from the [[group]], but not really. I spent almost three years [[studying]], attending the [[meetings]], a lot of [[prayer]], a lot of [[stillness]] time, and one night I was in the stillness and I felt an urge that I needed to move along. So I took that as it is time to go out and try your wings. These past two years I have been doing that. I have [[experienced]] a lot of ups and downs. There has been times when I have been unable to, and currently I am unable to, and I don't know why, when I go into the [[stillness]] or into [[prayer]] my [[mind]]-it is like I get shut off. I cannot get into a deep stillness or deep prayer. I can do a surface prayer or a surface stillness, but to [[become]] one with my inner [[self]] and with Father, I am unable to do that. So my question is--I need to find that [[source]] again. I need to find a way to have that [[peace]] of mind I used to have. I don't know if I am using the right [[words]] here, but to find a [[path]] in to where I can go back in the [[stillness]], and I don't know if I was shut off deliberately, or [[intentionally]], or I am to do my own thing for awhile more or what. So that is my question.

ABRAHAM: Understood. In your first attempts at *stillness* there was quite a noticeable difference. Yes? (Yes.) In your spiritual maturing this difference becomes normal, not as extreme, but more consistent, almost as if it has always been there. Your spiritual balancing is affecting all areas of your life, in that you look for Father's guidance regularly, and it is not so intensely concentrated on, no. It is becoming common. Know your spiritual connection is as it always was. The degrees are maturing, and with all new knowledge, there is new goals to reach. The striving is almost eternal. You can reach a spiritual level successfully and feel that joy, and the next day feel a whole new goal in front of you that is seemingly unreachable. This is with your *stillness*. It is becoming a constant in all areas of your life. Your diligent searching for Father's fingerprints will help you to feel the love and comfort and connection again. You have done well in your search. There is! to be no regrets. As you have said, your inner feelings drew you to a certain goal. This is right. Your spiritual lessons are between you and Father. Our Teaching Mission is to assist, but never to replace Father and His intimate contact with His children. You are experiencing a turning of a page that in, that book that is your life, it is in the turning you see many letters, words, but there is no understanding at that point until the page is fully turned, and you can begin again. Yes, always is there striving.

ABRAHAM: [[Understood]]. In your first attempts at [[stillness]] there was quite a noticeable [[difference]]. Yes? (Yes.) In your spiritual [[maturing]] this difference becomes [[normal]], not as [[extreme]], but more [[consistent]], almost as if it has always been there. Your spiritual [[balancing]] is affecting all areas of your [[life]], in that you look for Father's [[guidance]] regularly, and it is not so intensely [[concentrated]] on, no. It is becoming common. Know your spiritual [[connection]] is as it always was. The [[degrees]] are [[maturing]], and with all new [[knowledge]], there is new [[goals]] to reach. The striving is almost [[eternal]]. You can reach a spiritual level successfully and [[feel]] that [[joy]], and the next day feel a whole new goal in front of you that is seemingly unreachable. This is with your [[stillness]]. It is [[becoming]] a constant in all areas of your life. Your [[diligent]] searching for Father's fingerprints will help you to feel the [[love]] and [[comfort]] and connection again. You have done well in your search. There is to be no [[regrets]]. As you have said, your inner [[feelings]] drew you to a certain goal. This is right. Your spiritual lessons are between you and Father. Our [[Teaching Mission]] is to [[assist]], but never to replace Father and His [[intimate]] contact with His children. You are [[experiencing]] a turning of a page that in, that book that is your [[life]], it is in the turning you see many letters, words, but there is no understanding at that point until the page is fully turned, and you can begin again. Yes, always is there striving.

===Lesson 23===

===Lesson 23===