Barbara: I [[recognize]] in this a pattern in my life that began when I was very young. Putting an arm's distance between myself and [[spiritual]] matters. And I know of the reasons why it happens. It happens [[consistently]]. I do a [[dance]]--close and then far away, close and then far away. What I'd like to know is, what do you suggest in terms of . . .when I really feel resistant to things I know I should do, and that will bring me closer to [[the Father]], what kinds of things can I do to foster the [[desire]]? That's what's gone--the [[desire]]. I'm [[bored]]. It feels like what it did when I used to go to [[church]], and I'd just sit there and be bored. I wasn't bored with the people I was with, but with the [[message]]. And there's something dreadfully wrong with that. | Barbara: I [[recognize]] in this a pattern in my life that began when I was very young. Putting an arm's distance between myself and [[spiritual]] matters. And I know of the reasons why it happens. It happens [[consistently]]. I do a [[dance]]--close and then far away, close and then far away. What I'd like to know is, what do you suggest in terms of . . .when I really feel resistant to things I know I should do, and that will bring me closer to [[the Father]], what kinds of things can I do to foster the [[desire]]? That's what's gone--the [[desire]]. I'm [[bored]]. It feels like what it did when I used to go to [[church]], and I'd just sit there and be bored. I wasn't bored with the people I was with, but with the [[message]]. And there's something dreadfully wrong with that. |