Changes

==Session==

==Session==

===Opening===

===Opening===

Ham: Greetings my children, I am Ham and I am happy to have you here this evening. The understanding and loyalty you all exhibit is touching to my heart. We are glad that you are here to usher in the new year with all its promise, all its joy and hope for the new millennium to come. This is a time when it is natural for you to think about your progress over this past year. Let me assure you that you have each made wonderful, good, strong progress spiritually which will aid you tremendously during the challenges that await you each in the coming year. This time is one for rejoicing and also for some stock-taking, for reflection as to how you have progressed over this year. It would be god for you each to express your reflection at this time. Beginning with Rebecca, please express how you feel you have progressed this year, and also where you feel you need to make progress.

Ham: Greetings my children, I am Ham and I am [[happy]] to have you here this evening. The [[understanding]] and [[loyalty]] you all exhibit is [[touching]] to my [[heart]]. We are glad that you are here to usher in the [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/New_year new year] with all its [[promise]], all its joy and [[hope]] for the new millennium to come. This is a time when it is natural for you to think about your [[progress]] over this past year. Let me [[assure]] you that you have each made wonderful, [[good]], strong [[progress]] spiritually which will aid you tremendously during the [[challenges]] that await you each in the coming year. This time is one for rejoicing and also for some stock-taking, for [[reflection]] as to how you have progressed over this year. It would be god for you each to [[express]] your [[reflection]] at this time. Beginning with Rebecca, please express how you feel you have progressed this year, and also where you feel you need to make progress.

===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

Rebecca: (paraphrased) Made progress in being in the now and in happiness and self-fulfillment. Starting to know who I am better - made progress going back in childhood and working through things, progress in integrating parts of myself, but need to make more progress with this.

Rebecca: (paraphrased) Made progress in being in the [[now]] and in [[happiness]] and self-fulfillment. Starting to know who I am better - made progress going back in [[childhood]] and working through things, progress in [[integrating]] parts of myself, but need to make more progress with this.

Jarad: (paraphrased) Hard for me to see myself. Made progress in humility and thinking less negatively about others and myself. Less outbursts at people. Need to make progress in self sabotage and self restraint and dependance on "other than spiritual energies."

Jarad: (paraphrased) Hard for me to see myself. Made [[progress]] in [[humility]] and [[thinking]] less [[negatively]] about others and myself. Less outbursts at people. Need to make progress in [[self]] [[sabotage]] and self restraint and dependance on "other than spiritual energies."

Ricallo: (paraphrased) I feel I have back-slid the past few months. This seems to be a watershed moment when old behaviors are coming back and I have to either face them once and forever or run. I’m really uncomfortable the last month or so. Pain is a cornerstone of growth so I realize its for our own benefit, but the confusion and self-doubt has really risen to the forefront. When you’re in the middle of it and living it, it’s hard to realize it for what it is.

Ricallo: (paraphrased) I feel I have [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Backslide back-slid] the past few months. This seems to be a watershed [[moment]] when old [[behaviors]] are coming back and I have to either face them once and forever or run. I’m really uncomfortable the last month or so. [[Pain]] is a [[cornerstone]] of [[growth]] so I realize its for our own benefit, but the [[confusion]] and self-[[doubt]] has really risen to the forefront. When you’re in the middle of it and living it, it’s hard to realize it for what it is.

Ham: Yes, these times are indeed filled with difficulties for a purpose. You, each one, cannot get through the old patterns and blockages that occur without challenge, without circumstances which challenge you. Yes, Rebecca, you and Jarad have come through a year of quite severe testing and are now at a period of quiescence, when you are resting and consolidating the growth you have achieved through these difficulties.

Ham: Yes, these times are indeed filled with [[difficulties]] for a [[purpose]]. You, each one, cannot get through the old [[patterns]] and [[blockages]] that occur without challenge, without circumstances which challenge you. Yes, Rebecca, you and Jarad have come through a year of quite severe [[testing]] and are now at a period of [[quiescence]], when you are [[resting]] and consolidating the [[growth]] you have achieved through these difficulties.

Ricallo, you are going through the testing still, and are doing very well. It is hard to see this, of course, because the situations which challenge tend to cause you to feel misgivings about yourself. This is due to the fact that you are not able to see a clear decision to be made. As soon as you see clearly a decision that will reinforce your spiritual status as you have achieved it, then you will feel much better and things go more smoothly. Correct, you are allowing fear to drive you into feeling the old patterns, "what to do is what you’ve always done," but this can’t be because you are not who you were. You are facing a challenge, yes, and yes, you will come through it, you will survive it, you will come through to the other end and be alright. Do not feel that this is such a crisis, because it is not really that bad. You are tending to magnify the level of real problem that you are facing. That is from old patterns and a fear that made you give up and run before the test really came several times. That is not an option now.

Ricallo, you are going through the testing still, and are doing very well. It is hard to see this, of course, because the situations which [[challenge]] tend to cause you to feel misgivings about yourself. This is due to the [[fact]] that you are not able to see a clear [[decision]] to be made. As soon as you see clearly a decision that will reinforce your [[spiritual]] [[status]] as you have achieved it, then you will feel much better and things go more smoothly. Correct, you are allowing fear to drive you into feeling the old patterns, "what to do is what you’ve always done," but this can’t be because you are not who you were. You are facing a [[challenge]], yes, and yes, you will come through it, you will [[survive]] it, you will come through to the other end and be alright. Do not feel that this is such a [[crisis]], because it is not really that bad. You are tending to [[magnify]] the level of real problem that you are facing. That is from old patterns and a fear that made you give up and run before the test really came several times. That is not an [[option]] now.

The test is simple: can you humble yourself enough to endure whatever God asks you to? Can you humble yourself enough to do the work of a common laborer or wash the feet of those you consider below you, you see? It is a chance to find an inner humility an inner willingness to sacrifice that which you want for that which God wants. If you can do that, make that decision completely, that you will endure whatever the Father wills, you will follow him and learn his lessons in the most humble way, even as the Master did, coming to this world, living in poverty and having to work with his hands as the lowest kind of laborer and yet all the time being much more. Yet enduring this, enduring this sacrifice of self for the will of the Father who willed the greater lessons to be learned in this humility. In doing so He found who He was. He found Himself in humanity, in the man, Jesus.

The test is [[simple]]: can you [[humble]] yourself enough to [[endure]] whatever God asks you to? Can you humble yourself enough to do the work of a common laborer or wash the feet of those you consider below you, you see? It is a [[chance]] to find an inner [[humility]] an inner willingness to [[sacrifice]] that which you want for that which God wants. If you can do that, make that [[decision]] completely, that you will endure whatever [[the Father]] wills, you will follow him and learn his lessons in the most humble way, even as [[the Master]] did, coming to this world, living in [[poverty]] and having to work with his hands as the lowest kind of laborer and yet all the time being much more. Yet enduring this, enduring this [[sacrifice]] of [[self]] for the will of the Father who willed the greater lessons to be learned in this humility. In doing so He found who He was. He found Himself in [[humanity]], in the man, [[Jesus]].

Every person, as you walk through this world, are faced with this same kind of testing in a smaller degree. Can you abandon your will, your wants, your ideas about what you should have and who you should be, for something which may seem t be smaller, but which holds the greater gift? This is the essence of living as a human being, the essence of finding the gifts which God gives you rather than your own will and the self-destruction which that will entails always, in all cases. Those who have much, but have not God, have nothing. Everyone must learn the lesson of the Carpenter, the lesson of the boat builder, the lesson of the caravan shop. The lowly work of service is worth much more than all the accolades, all the seeming accomplishments of those who seem to have earthly power and wealth. The one who walked in true humility, who had no home, who had no money, whose friends deserted him, who was humiliated and finally put to death, gained the full measure of the Father’s power.

Every person, as you walk through [[this world]], are faced with this same kind of [[testing]] in a smaller degree. Can you [[abandon]] your will, your wants, your [[ideas]] about what you should have and who you should be, for something which may seem to be smaller, but which holds the greater gift? This is the [[essence]] of living as a human being, the essence of finding the gifts which God gives you rather than your own will and the self-destruction which that will entails always, in all cases. Those who have much, but have not God, have nothing. Everyone must learn the lesson of the Carpenter, the lesson of the boat builder, the lesson of the caravan shop. The lowly work of [[service]] is worth much more than all the accolades, all the seeming accomplishments of those who seem to have earthly [[power]] and [[wealth]]. The one who walked in true [[humility]], who had no [[home]], who had no [[money]], whose friends [[deserted]] him, who was humiliated and finally [[the Crucifixion|put to death]], gained the full measure of the Father’s power.

Where you are in this world is only truly where the Father sees you. The Father sees each of you in your spiritual growth, he sees your true worth, your true value, and He withholds only gifts which you are not ready to receive yet. Once the Master had been through His earthly trial, then he was ready to receive the gift of complete sovereignty in His Universe. Each one of you, therefore, must be ready to endure those trials which prepare you to receive His greater gifts. No one escapes this. It is not something unique, but is complete in this world.

Where you are in [[this world]] is only truly where [[the Father]] sees you. The Father sees each of you in your [[spiritual growth]], he sees your true [[worth]], your true [[value]], and He withholds only gifts which you are not ready to [[receive]] yet. Once [[the Master]] had been through His earthly trial, then he was ready to receive the gift of complete [[sovereignty]] in [[Nebadon|His Universe]]. Each one of you, therefore, must be ready to endure those trials which prepare you to receive His greater gifts. No one escapes this. It is not something unique, but is complete in this world.

You who would grow in the Father’s Love, who would grow toward Him in His security, in His peace, in His joy and faith, you must be ready to endure trials of an earthly nature; and not only one, but many. Each trial, which comes before you, is one which will steady you, which will give you greater gravity, greater feeling of being planted in the earth, a greater feeling of having endured and of being able to endure. No human being who has ever accomplished anything truly worthwhile, has done so without first experiencing great suffering, trials and tribulation. These things you will look upon with spiritual eyes as being wonderful gifts, not terrible tragedies, for each trial forces you to ask the question, who am I? Who am I really? What are my decisions based on who I am? Am I a person who is buffeted about by the slings ans arrows of fortune? Do the winds of chance throw me off balance? Or am I steady, regardless of the fortunes of time, which come and go; or the fashions of time, which also come and go? Everything changes.

You who would grow in the Father’s Love, who would grow toward Him in His security, in His peace, in His joy and faith, you must be ready to endure trials of an earthly nature; and not only one, but many. Each trial, which comes before you, is one which will steady you, which will give you greater gravity, greater feeling of being planted in the earth, a greater feeling of having endured and of being able to endure. No human being who has ever accomplished anything truly worthwhile, has done so without first experiencing great suffering, trials and tribulation. These things you will look upon with spiritual eyes as being wonderful gifts, not terrible tragedies, for each trial forces you to ask the question, who am I? Who am I really? What are my decisions based on who I am? Am I a person who is buffeted about by the slings ans arrows of fortune? Do the winds of chance throw me off balance? Or am I steady, regardless of the fortunes of time, which come and go; or the fashions of time, which also come and go? Everything changes.