Changes

I had made the [[decision]] to opt out of [[experience]] and I had not [[joy]] or misery. I had nothing. I had emptiness. I grew to have resentments which were again [[imaginings]] of the [[ego]] and again I sought [[escape]]. I can tell you that I have spent a long time in search of a place to belong or something [[meaningful]] that fed my [[soul]]. With the [[experience]] of [[the Master]]’s teachings I learned what hard [[work]] was and that [[escape]] will bring emptiness.

I had made the [[decision]] to opt out of [[experience]] and I had not [[joy]] or misery. I had nothing. I had emptiness. I grew to have resentments which were again [[imaginings]] of the [[ego]] and again I sought [[escape]]. I can tell you that I have spent a long time in search of a place to belong or something [[meaningful]] that fed my [[soul]]. With the [[experience]] of [[the Master]]’s teachings I learned what hard [[work]] was and that [[escape]] will bring emptiness.

   

   

Being a part of [[the Master]]’s [[plan]] showed me that [http://nordan.daynal.org/wiki/index.php?title=Paper_3#3:5._THE_FATHER.27S_SUPREME_RULE self-forgetfulness 3:5.13)] is an important [[quality]] to strive for in [[maturing]] [[spiritually]]. [[Jesus]] always seemed so full of [[energy]] and was many times [[busy]] with the masses and did not have [[thought]] for how tired He was. You can even see in His [[experience]], half the time He forgot about feeding the [[material]] [[body]]. He was busy and always about [[the Father]]’s business.

Being a part of [[the Master]]’s [[plan]] showed me that [http://nordan.daynal.org/wiki/index.php?title=Paper_3#3:5._THE_FATHER.27S_SUPREME_RULE self-forgetfulness (3:5.13)] is an important [[quality]] to strive for in [[maturing]] [[spiritually]]. [[Jesus]] always seemed so full of [[energy]] and was many times [[busy]] with the masses and did not have [[thought]] for how tired He was. You can even see in His [[experience]], half the time He forgot about feeding the [[material]] [[body]]. He was busy and always about [[the Father]]’s business.

   

   

I had also become quite [[compassionate]] for the [[individuals]] I began to [[work]] with and felt a [[connection]] to [[Father]] that I had not before. The [[temptations]] of the [[ego]] had decreased and I felt a new empowerment. All along I had an [[acceptance]] and belonging. I did not know. It was [[experience]] and [[spiritual]] [[growth]] that had brought me Father’s map. He orchestrated my lessons in such a way that I could move forward along the path of [[spiritual]] [[maturity]]. I was with the [[realization]] that the closer I was to Father, the smaller my [[ego]] obstacles were. I felt driven to fully live and dive into life with the [[comfort]] of knowing that Father brings about an [[ultimate]] [[good]].

I had also become quite [[compassionate]] for the [[individuals]] I began to [[work]] with and felt a [[connection]] to [[Father]] that I had not before. The [[temptations]] of the [[ego]] had decreased and I felt a new empowerment. All along I had an [[acceptance]] and belonging. I did not know. It was [[experience]] and [[spiritual]] [[growth]] that had brought me Father’s map. He orchestrated my lessons in such a way that I could move forward along the path of [[spiritual]] [[maturity]]. I was with the [[realization]] that the closer I was to Father, the smaller my [[ego]] obstacles were. I felt driven to fully live and dive into life with the [[comfort]] of knowing that Father brings about an [[ultimate]] [[good]].