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===Dialogue===

===Dialogue===

Tm.I was just wondering if with other groups that you taught, and are teaching, if we are following a similar pattern, where the every day queries come to a halt, and we get to where we are now?

Tm.I was just [[wondering]] if with other [[groups]] that you taught, and are teaching, if we are following a similar [[pattern]], where the every day queries come to a halt, and we get to where we are now?

Teacher: Correct. As with any teaching, any learning process, the immediacy of the physical concerns are dealt with yes

Teacher: Correct. As with any teaching, any [[learning]] [[process]], the immediacy of the [[physical]] concerns are dealt with yes

"Last week you suggested we look at our barriers, and I don't mind coming out with one of mine, and it's fear of embarrassment, making myself look silly in situations, group discussions. I can't stand the silence at any meetings, I have got to say something even if it's only a joke, just to break the silence and get things going, I feel awkward doing it, but I'd rather do that than have the silence.

"Last week you suggested we look at our barriers, and I don't [[mind]] coming out with one of mine, and it's [[fear]] of [[embarrassment]], making myself look silly in situations, [[group]] [[discussions]]. I can't stand the [[silence]] at any [[meetings]], I have got to say something even if it's only a joke, just to break the [[silence]] and get things going, I feel awkward doing it, but I'd rather do that than have the [[silence]].

Teacher: So you are aware of an uncomfortable silence, you are not content with silence.

Teacher: So you are aware of an uncomfortable silence, you are not content with [[silence]].

"No, I feel embarrassment for myself, and possibly others as well.

"No, I feel [[embarrassment]] for myself, and possibly others as well.

Teacher: So you feel the need to fill the void.

Teacher: So you feel the need to fill the void.

"I tend to do the same right here, like now.

"I tend to do the same right here, like now.

Teacher: I am aware Tommas: . You see, your fear is not of embarrass, it is of THE SlLENCE, and it is taking responsibility for others, yes? The embarrassment arises from the inner understanding that you have not the need to fill the void. You are understanding these words

Teacher: I am aware Tommas: . You see, your [[fear]] is not of [[embarrass]], it is of THE [[Silence|SlLENCE]], and it is taking [[responsibility]] for others, yes? The [[embarrassment]] arises from the inner [[understanding]] that you have not the need to fill the void. You are [[understanding]] these [[words]]

"Yes, I think so.

"Yes, I [[think]] so.

Teacher: I shall leave you to contemplate, yes and we shall discuss when everyone has spoken.

Teacher: I shall leave you to [[contemplate]], yes and we shall [[discuss]] when everyone has [[spoken]].

SlI wrote down 3 hurdles, but the first 2 maybe wrapped up in the 3rd one. I more or less ended the meeting last week by saying I didn’t like to be scorned at, I don't mind making myself an idiot, of being the clown, if I start it, if I choose the position, but I don't like being thought of as a fool by some body else, if I haven’t put myself in that position on purpose, but that's not going deep enough, there's more to it than that, I think it touches on pride, I lack self confidence, I've often been offered higher positions in jobs I have worked at, and I've always turned it down, and in fact recently left a job because I felt I was being pushed into a position of authority that I didn’t want to do. I think that was a fear of failing, which comes back to pride. I didn’t want to take on a job that I would let myself down, or the staff down, or the boss down. So I left because of pride, rather than fail. But I've also got a big hurdle of guilt. Of leaving my parents, Who didn’t need me at the time, but I feel, as I'm the eldest in the family, they needed me later. I feel guilty about losing two children during pregnancy. I feel I've done something wrong. Perhaps I didn’t eat the right foods, or take care of my body, or. perhaps that comes back to pride. So I've got a lot of emotions all mixed in together, and I'm not sure if they are separate hurdles, or if they are all one.

Sl I wrote down 3 hurdles, but the first 2 maybe wrapped up in the 3rd one. I more or less ended the [[meeting]] last week by saying I didn’t like to be [[scorned]] at, I don't [[mind]] making myself an [[idiot]], of being the [[clown]], if I start it, if I [[choose]] the position, but I don't like being [[thought]] of as a [[fool]] by some body else, if I haven’t put myself in that position on purpose, but that's not going deep enough, there's more to it than that, I think it touches on pride, I lack self confidence, I've often been offered higher positions in jobs I have worked at, and I've always turned it down, and in fact recently left a job because I felt I was being pushed into a position of authority that I didn’t want to do. I think that was a fear of failing, which comes back to pride. I didn’t want to take on a job that I would let myself down, or the staff down, or the boss down. So I left because of pride, rather than fail. But I've also got a big hurdle of guilt. Of leaving my parents, Who didn’t need me at the time, but I feel, as I'm the eldest in the family, they needed me later. I feel guilty about losing two children during pregnancy. I feel I've done something wrong. Perhaps I didn’t eat the right foods, or take care of my body, or. perhaps that comes back to pride. So I've got a lot of emotions all mixed in together, and I'm not sure if they are separate hurdles, or if they are all one.

Teacher: They are connected.

Teacher: They are connected.

Teacher: Then, much, yes, much tolerance you are learning. Then I shall leave you with this...

Teacher: Then, much, yes, much tolerance you are learning. Then I shall leave you with this...

===Closing===

===Closing===

When you have learned tolerance, you shall have acceptance, you shall have understanding, which should eradicate the hatred for others which is for self, and replace with love, which is light, which is truth, which is God.

When you have learned tolerance, you shall have acceptance, you shall have understanding, which should eradicate the hatred for others which is for self, and replace with love, which is light, which is truth, which is God.