2001-08-20-Group Rehabilitation

Session

Opening

David reads his comments from December 17, 2000, given shortly before he and the TR left for a seven-month trip in the States. “I want to express my appreciation to each member of this group. This is not a habit, this is something that I choose each week to do to enhance my sense of community with you, and my sense of faith together with you, and my sense of being a learner at this university of love. I am very glad that all of you are participating with us in this. Thank you.”

Dialogue

I want to tell you about my commitment to this group. I’ve had a lot of religious journeys in my life, but this is the most beautiful, the most intense, the most helpful that I’ve ever come across. So I value it very highly. I’m committed to it in terms of getting this place beautiful for when you arrive every Sunday. I’m committed to it in terms of the gift that I cherish that Suzi has, that I get not only at this hour but in private times as well. I value the teachers. I value the teachings. And I value the student body here. I value the structure that we created, that has this heart room. We took this heart room that you all helped create, and we gave it to America, we left it there. They hadn’t been in the heart room. I had the feeling we were missionaries there.

Anyway, that is my sense of commitment. And also, I feel it is very challenging to love. This week has been a very challenging experience in learning to love. Thank you for your attention.

Sandy : Thank you, David. Oliver, would you like to speak now? Also, remember to speak to the way we have structured it up to now. If there is some change one would like. I think we need to explore if we have feelings that things are not going the way we would like, as well as things that are going the way we like, the way we want to keep it.

Oliver : In the grape vine I have heard there was, indeed, some satisfaction in the way it was going. But I don’t have any direct information. For me, personally, I come here not only to attempt to balance out my week, and the last period of time has been quite heavy and challenging, and I don’t really, really understand yet what is happening, on every avenue of the past, my women of the past, my children, my business partner, everything seems to be in upheaval. Frankly I don’t understand.

I know that David has such a privileged situation with Susan that he can ask the teachers any time. I tried when I was really, really down, to get some teacher contact. The more I tried myself, the more I actually removed myself from the teachers, because my adrenalin started pumping, and I could not get back to the stillness as I was used to. So I came here. But the time was not ready. I’m just saying this as an observation. There is nothing more intended than, basically, saying how I felt at the time.

And so I come here on Sundays, and actually expect and need teacher contact, so when it doesn’t happen, well, it was a disappointment last week, which I took in absolute grace, I think, and respected Susan for making contact with Alana and being guided and then saying what was happening. So I would really like to do my best to not overstep my time right now, because 2 o’colock is approaching.

I am really in need of the love I receive here. I am also very willing to let things happen. I have a lot of group experience. I have been in many groups, spiritual and religious ones, and I think also like David that this is the cream of the crop, so to speak, for me. I have never felt that loved in any other group. And the teachers are an excellent example of how to love and how to bring joy, and out of that joy to bring acceptance. I also feel that I have never been accepted as much, in my life, as I have been here and by the teachers.

At the same time, I think we need to be open to whoever knocketh at the door. The core group has had a tendency here to make many points about how “we are actually the core group.” That makes it very, very difficult for new, insecure, possibly insecure people to come in to the group. I personally wish that this group expand. This, what we have…I read today what Jar-el said, that not everybody will be a transmitter, but we should make sure that everybody gets the message, also. I would like to continue in terms of my publishing efforts. I spend a lot of time preparing, working with other team members working on publishing endeavors, and I want to get more and more into that. But we should never forget that there are a lot of…what I consider…well, I am surrounded, right now in my life, by a lot of needy people, extremely confused people who have not even the slightest glimpse of God’s love. Due to their life experiences. Due to their upbringing. Due to their religious teachings, whatever. I would really like to be of service to them as well, and get the message out there if they can not appear here in person.

Nena : (Much of what she says is in Spanish, and difficult to hear, or understand. She is speaking of Oliver inviting others. There is some mention of Denora, and Oliver says he did not invite Denora to the group. Sandy explains that Oliver was saying that it is difficult for new members to come into the group.) I remember it was difficult to come into the group. I remember I was shy, as well as curious. I remember that I did not know David, or Susie. I think it is important to consider why someone wants to come here. Why. (Everything becomes unclear again.)

Without doubt, last week I was in the middle of my depression. This week I had a very strong, a very big experience and I opened up from my depression, opened up myself. The love of God helped me. My love from the teachers helped me.

The last time I came here because here I enjoy to live this heart room. I enjoy to hear, to live and breathe while Susie is transmitting. I don’t have expectations. I come here like a child. I love here. I feel love here. And the last time I was here, you, Oliver, started to read. And I was curious. You read for a long time, and I lost my attention, because I didn’t feel your love coming through. I felt you read it like a lesson, not a sharing of your love. I don’t want this. I understand that you wanted to explain something, but I felt you were being like a teacher. This may be my problem, but, no, I am not interested. After you were finished, I understood nothing. The same when Patrick spoke, I understood nothing, not one word, nothing. We have teachers coming to us, I want to hear them, not you.

Later I thought to try and figure out what was happening? And I think I was judging you. (This, she says, was after Tanya had contacted her about a situation that involved Oliver.) I believe in our teachers. You, I believe you are not ready, not a teacher. You are looking for answers. You say you are understanding more, but I am thinking this is words, not what is so. Remember when we spoke once about sincerity? And I said to you that I had fallen in love with Oscar, and that I had to speak to Germann. I was telling you that I must be sincere with Germann. And you said, “What is sincerity? No body is sincere.” I say to you, Yes, we must be sincere (open, truthful). And I immediately was sincere with Germann, at my next opportunity, and I told him my truth with love. (She mentions to Oliver that the trouble with Tanya will be addressed at another time, not in this group, now.)

Oliver : I should now say a few things about the meeting?

Sandy : I think we just have to go through every body expressing. We did start late, but I think we have to go through without comment first. How is that every body. Can we take just a few more minutes for every one to speak. A few more minutes before asking the teachers to speak.

Susie : Yes. The anxiety about time is because of my comment last week regarding time. Your sons were coming here, but you had told them 4 o’clock, not 3 (although they arrived at three, because Shawn said he knew it ended at 3). We did start late today, but I think this is an important meeting and we should take the time we need.

David : Could someone summarize what Nena said, because I lost a lot.

Sandy : Nena was trying hard to express with love to Oliver that she felt not the love coming out of him last week, not the love that she has come to expect here. I think the fact that he read for so long, and then Patrick spoke for so long, well, she just lost it. She did not understand. She was not interested. She comes here with the expectation of sharing the heart room, sharing the love among all of us, and also hearing from the teachers, that is a very important aspect of this group.

Nena : I also spoke about sincerity.

David : So in a certain sense, her commitment could be put in the succinct form that, she wants to hear from the teachers, we want to hear from the teachers, that’s part of the structure of this group, and that it is our responsibility to make that happen.

Sandy : Well, we haven’t arrived at that statement yet, but certainly that is what Nena hopes to have.

Nena : I do not know what Patrick said.

Sandy : Well, I don’t know that he said much, but…

Nena : I hope you know that I love him, but when I am here…(she breathes deeply).

Susan : My commitment to this group is to bring the teachers. I would like to see the first part of our meeting kept to a relatively short period of time, not endless talking, but succinct things that we are working on, or maybe what our questions are for the teachers that day, or what we’ve worked on that they have said to us. That may be my personal need, to see us wrestling with, grappling with the things that show up in the lessons. I think the anxiety about time today is because I mentioned time, specifically, last week. I still had some emotions operating when I spoke last week. Alana has made it clear that is part of why she did not speak last week. She said, they do not speak for my emotions. It was important that I do so, speak for my emotions. Speak up for myself and my needs. She also pointed out to me that I perceived the way things were going as a lack of progress, and so I was distressed, feeling my responsibility for this, or what have you. The way in which she pointed this out to me made it clear that she did not necessarily see this as a lack of progress. She made it clear to me that this is a very powerful growth period.

I have been open to new people coming to the group. I think something that Sandy said to me at some point in the middle of the week is relevant. She pointed out to me that we had only been back two weeks. Maybe moving right into things was a bit overwhelming, I haven’t quite fully returned, hadn’t even unpacked when the first Sunday came along. I’m taking that into consideration. That may be true. I have all these tapes that I want to transcribe to share. So I am taking a look at that. May take another vacation.

It is very important to me that we pay attention to time, unless we agree to extend our time frame at any particular meeting. We have more leeway today because we have agreed to relax our time line, or at least I have, because I think this process is so very important, that what we are talking about, what happened last week and through the week up until today is important enough to give more time. I feel flexible on that, and I am quite willing to give more time if it is necessary, and if I can. But I don’t want time used up, or wasted, without consciousness. So for a general principle I think that it is important, and I include myself because I know that often I am not on time, that we all try to stay within the boundaries of time, so that I don’t get the feeling that I am being what David calls the eight-breasted goddess, or whatever. (laughter)

As I said, I am open to new people coming. My heart is always open to that. But I also have some difficulties with it. I think there is no doubt in anyone’s mind that it was a big step for me to accept Patrick the last two Sundays, particularly the first Sunday. I shared my difficulty at our re-union meeting, but surrendered my concerns, leaving it up to the teachers to handle. I had a confrontation with Patrick before I left because he had behaved disrespectfully toward me, and he continues to do so, when things don’t go his way and he thinks I am responsible for that. I have my reasons for not trusting him. It is very difficult for me, at this time, to have people in this group that I do not trust. Alana pointed out that there is some confusion, partially because we went on this trip, absence is certainly part of it, but we went on this trip and I transmitted before groups of people who were strangers to me, and before people that David brought to me not always with pre-consultation. And there could be some misunderstanding from this. But I am personally conscious that I am not in the U.S., not in California, or Oregon, or Utah. I am in Costa Rica. I am considerably more self-protective than I might be otherwise. I think and feel that it is, therefore, an important time for the group to discuss and, at least grant me my need for self-protection. What that means to me is, the rule has been broken several times from the very beginning, the first time by my very own husband…but if we are inclined to invite some one to the group meeting…and I know that sometimes this is almost so spontaneous that you don’t think…you want to share this with whomever you happen to be in that kind of close contact…but it is my request that we agree not to formally invite someone, or bring them to the group, without passing it through the group first. And Alana has added, probably to reassure me at the moment, or to give me confidence at this time, that you also pass it through her, or the teachers. This is acceptable to me and does not seem to me to be an imposition upon any one. The groups in the U.S. have been established for many years, many years. This group has been operating for six months…that is, with me transmitting the teachers out loud to you. I know you continued to meet while I was gone, and we tried to stay in contact as best we could, we have a gestalt, let us say, of over a year, but the reality is that open transmitting, such as I do, has been going on in this group setting for only six months.

I hope I am not putting a heavy burden upon you, Oliver, by bringing up Patrick, but he is an excellent example of the difficulty for me, the position I am in, the position I can be put in since I am the transmitter, and the group is held at my home. I also need to say that I don’t see myself as running this group. I do not see David, Sandy or myself as owning this group, or running this group. We were the founding members, and I agree that we have said this several times that we started it, that we were the founding core, but it has always been obvious to me that the teachers run the group. It has also been very obvious to me that the teachers give each newcomer welcome and attention; regardless if a newcomer finds it difficult to blend in with the other group members. Sometimes this makes me bend over backwards, let us say, for example, to accept Patrick, and I did. You all remember our homecoming meeting in which I expressed my difficulties with Patrick, but I said, Well, leave it up to Alana, she and they always handle everything. Well, I was being a little bit “macha” at the time, because I hadn’t really talked about it with Alana at that time. Because my own stuff gets in the way, my own need to please, my own need to say Oh yes, that’s ok! My own need to give gets in the way, and I don’t…I did not, I won’t say I don’t ever, but I did not make it clear to all of you the extent of my difficulties. I recognize it was different while I was gone. I had a very serious problem with Patrick’s presence. I still do. Maybe that has something to do with a small group. At Pocatello they have a huge group. There are people who have personality conflicts with various transmitters, but they kind of melt into the background with so many people. Although they have had serious problems from time to time, even recently someone was asked to leave, or left with extreme anger. And I know Henry’s group in Arcadia has had this difficulty in the past. Both groups have sometimes had to ask people to leave. This group is smaller, so maybe I feel it more intensely, I don’t know.

Alana gave David a lesson, by the way, on his “need” to give. So I am going to pass it on to you, Oliver, to examine your need to give the group away without due process. The way you expressed it in your email, when I was still in the US, when you talked about Patrick coming, and Claude dropping in, etc. I was so distressed, I did not want to respond because I thought, I’m not going to say nice things, or I’m not going to say the right things. But what I did want to say was, What do you mean you can’t say no? Examine that. I’ve had to examine that. Alana and Legion have pushed me, relentlessly, on my inability to say No when I need to say No. So, I’ve gone on too long.

Sandy : Yes, things were loosier goosier while Susie and David were gone. There were times, Oliver, when just you and I met, and I found those times very helpful. To me the expectation of getting together with trusted friends, people who can be naked with each other and totally accepting is everything. For me, one of the extraordinary things that has happened by being in this group is learning to love, in some cases relative strangers, in an unconditional way. I really feel that I am being taught how to love. Oliver and I have been through, many times painful, but also joyful experiences. I really feel that you are my brother now, I love you, I love you. My love has deepened for Nena. My love has deepened for Susie and David. That’s what I want here.

I have to say that I felt it, personally, an imposition when Patrick showed up unannounced. I felt it an imposition when Tanya showed up unannounced. And when her father showed up unannounced. I had forgotten our rule that we talk about those things first. And we didn’t do that, you and I, when we were just meeting together. And I think it is important. I really do. As far as Patrick is concerned, I felt that his presence was very disruptive, both times, but especially last week, since Susie has returned. Quite frankly, I think we need to invite him out. That is going to be very difficult to do, but I think we need to do that.

We can’t experience this loving circle the way we want to when there is a person who is so obviously insecure, defensive, so determined to display his credentials in front of us, who is not capable of the openness and the real vulnerability that we’ve all learned to be together.

I want the structure to continue as it was originally established. We talk about those things that are important to our learning and our path. We turn the meeting over to the teachers and dedicate ourselves to their transmission of love, coming in to us and going out into the circle. It is so enriching. It has changed our lives.

Nena : You have to speak to Patrick?

Sandy : I don’t know how we will handle it. I think we have to talk to the teachers, maybe ask them how to handle it. But I think we need to invite him out. And, I also want to say to you Oliver, that I was so disturbed about what happened last week that I wrote a long letter. Please, if you have anything you want to say to me after reading it, call me. I also think it was inappropriate to invite Cici. This is a very private thing we have here. I think it is an extraordinary person who can come into this group and participate at the level of love, friendship and openness that we have established. And I think that it is really important that we screen those people before we extend the invitation.

So, I don’t know if you want to continue this discussion, or invite the teachers now.

David : I think we should invite the teachers, especially since we did not hear from them last week. I would like to suggest that this group could meet again, perhaps in the middle of the week, to go over the structure, or continue the conversation.

Susan : I haven’t made a decision yet, regarding Patrick. I’ve gone through many different scenarios. One is, I’ve thought there could be another group somewhere. Or, I could take some time off to get my bearings, and, like David suggested, meet with this group, or anyone individually. I want to respond, Oliver, to you saying that you came here in desperation and the time was ready…I think, if we are talking about the same day, I remember that you called in the morning and you were very distressed, and I remember saying that if David and I had a session, I would have him ask questions of Alana for you. But that turned out to be the day for Dulcelina. And I do not do any transmitting around Dulcelina, or Omar, or any one working here. I just don’t do it. You came over later, and I saw you out on the porch, here, with David. And I asked Legion, and he said that David was bringing yo some comfort and that was what you two should be doing. And so I went on with my routine, as it is when Dulcelina is here. I think it is important to correct a notion that you have, that David, it is true that he does have a priviledged seat around here, but to imagine that David gets to call on the teachers any time he wants is pure fantasy, and to thoroughly misunderstand our relationship. He doesn’t. And maybe that is part of how I have grown in my own sense of personal strength, to say no and respect my boundaries even if someone may feel bad about this, or might argue them as right or wrong. The teachers have been very rigorous with me in letting me know that when I say No that it is alright. Because sometimes David is very upset when I say No. And go on saying No for days. Because I don’t want to do it.

And some of that is my contribution to the group last week. Not transmitting. Alana and Legion were saying they would not speak for my emotions, and to let the group to reveal what needs to be looked. But I was also saying to myself, I am not going to transmit, because I won’t trust the words. I was feeling this that or the other and it might not be, it might get in the way, I just need to feel confident in myself, and if I don’t, then I don’t transmit, whatever the reason for my not feeling confident, it doesn’t matter.

One last thing, please don’t feel you are the only evangelist around here. I’ve had to deal with this one, right here.

David : I’m the evangelist who brought this evangelist in.

Sandy : Without asking, we might add. But none of regret this, however, Oliver.

Oliver : I think you are starting to regret this.

Sandy : No we are not. Please, don’t hear it that way. Please. That’s not what we are saying. Maybe it is a question of how we see our ministry as individuals.

David : We are all learning all of the time. Like last week was a tremendous learning experience, for all of us going through that. We tend to put a negative mark on such things, but….

Oliver : What is your cap, timewise?

Susan : Well, four…but we don’t really have one today.

Alana : Yes, this is Alana.

Nena : Welcome, dear Alana.

Alana : Thank you. So, we have many fish to fry, yes? (laughter) So, my friend, Mr. Practice. Your heart is calling out. You would have my attention, yes?

Oliver : Yes.

Alana : So, let us bring you into my heart room. Into the center of my heart room, now. Yes, you struggle with your thoughts of disappointment and disillusion. I blow love upon your face. Give me your thoughts. I clear your head. And now, allow me, allow me to touch your heart. I cradle your heart, for you have the opportunity to rest here with me inside the heart room as a child. Stay with me now, as I speak to the others, also eager, yet willing to support the heart room even if they do not rest in the center now.

So, my beloved Sandy. You wish for me to speak to you. Is it well with you that I speak as I cradle your beloved friend’s heart and mind in my arms?

Sandy : Alana, I think I can see Oliver and you in the heart room. Bathed in light and love. I am sharing in that love, here at the edge of the circle. I invite you to speak.

Alana : Thank you. Do you have a particular nugget of information that you request?

Sandy : (laughter) I think we have been struggling here today to speak clearly and lovingly. Perhaps the issue most important right now for all of us is ministry, service. How can we extend? We know how well this circle works together, but if we are somehow to extend this wonderful love that we receive outside of this small circle, what is the best way for us to do this?

Alana : Yes. You understand, of course, you are mere babes in the woods when it comes to a public ministry. Some of you have stepped forward with greater confidence than others. This has been valuable for you to incorporate, to expand, and to understand. I have already communicated that one step after another, learned, much like the human child, baby steps, toddler steps, adolescent steps, grander steps. The baby, the child, learns to walk by the guidance of parental figures and caretakers and teachers, like me. They stumble and fall, yet given appropriate circumstances and physical well-being, they return to try again. You would not expect the child to climb the stairs on two feet as an adult. You offer a hand. We offer a guard rail, as your friend, Sir David, so often requests.

So, a guard rail. It is valuable to honor and respect the genuine desire to love represented by those who see their ministry as reaching out, or outreach, I believe you say. Each of you has experienced this impulse. It is quite human, but like baby beginning to walk, this impulse must be developed with care and caution. Equally so, those who eagerly, and quite often spontaneously, reach out to give to others what they have found to be so valuable for themselves, must honor and respect the vulnerability of those who require certainty of trust. By this, I mean not just the trust of one invited, stranger or no, but also the trust of the one proffering the invitation; certainty of trust that those who exercise outreach will respect and honor those whose fears or doubts might interfere with such activities. I have said, your ministries to others, which will take many different forms, my beloveds…your ministries to others can only proceed from the successful, and I will not say completed, for the task is, from your point of view, endless, going well beyond the circumscribed length of a lifetime on your planet, however, your own personal growth in love comes before any step into the public arena. Allow me, for a moment, to speak to the one in my arms.

You, beloved, have devoted much time to the reproduction of our words and lessons, and this, my friend, is a considerable contribution to those who equally devote their time to the promotion and dissemination of the information being brought to your planet by the teaching mission. This I would encourage in you. Encourage you to work with others, as you are not always inclined to do, but are doing. And I would make a distinction for you between what you call publication, and what might be called public outreach, or public conversation. Thank you.

So, my friend, Sandy. I return to the concept of ministry. Service. Service to our Father, our Mother, and Michael. Service to the love that has been given to you. The love that fills you. The love you wish to give away. You understand, quite perfectly, the first level of ministry is ministry unto yourself. That is, as you most poetically said yourself, Sandy, the transformation of yourselves into transmitters of love. And you, my beloved, Nena.

Nena : Yes. That is the first time you’ve used my name. Thank you.

Alana : Thank you. You have correctly understood, my beloved little one, not all will transmit equally, or in the same form that is used now to communicate with you in this group setting. Yes, you are correct. Not every one will transmit in such a manner. However, this message will be brought to every one. And here we see your budding ministry. Which is your “Wow!” Your open-hearted generosity with love.

And you, my friend, Sir David. You have the capacity to speak like a preacher. And we work with you to shift that description, so that your exceptional powers to teach others with clarity may come through. You have been shaped by the concept of the preacher as your father passed it on to you, shaped by the preacher father. This mold…the transmitter sees the mold created for the production of statues…this mold that was presented to you from the very beginning of consciousness is not the mold we would have you use. Nor, as you have already discovered, does it suit you. However, because there is such a close affinity between the preacher and the teacher, your reluctance, let us say the resistance you have refused to love, your reluctance stands in the way. Has the potential, shall we say, to prevent the fullest expression of this ability. And yes, I confirm, for you, that you do, indeed, hear me, hear Legion, yes, even your beloved “Song.” We use, of course, the word “hear” loosely. You are not expected to hear voices, although that too is sometimes the form used by God for transmission and communication of his love. Nor, my friend, are you to demand of yourself that you transmit in the same form as your beloved partner. You already know, because I have already said so, your talent for speaking, for writing, is a talent to be used. And so, my friend, the baby steps of your ministry, which will be guided by your friend, my friend, and our friend…I speak of the group now, for your beloved Sandy have quite clearly said, “Alana, you are a member of the group, too!” Yes? Our beloved Legion will guide you. And he will present you with…well, the transmitter says homework, but that is not correct…He will ask you to write, not necessarily at length, on subjects he wishes for you to clarify to the group. They will be your arena for practice. Thank you.

And now, beloved Oliver, are you ready to leave my embrace and stand tall with the others in this circle?

Oliver : I love your embrace very much.

Alana : Yes. And are you ready to leave my embrace now?

Sandy : I would say No, Oliver. (laughter) What a special place to be!

Oliver : Oh it feels so good, Alana. It is so hard to say Yes. (more laughter)

Alana : And it is so hard to say No. Yes?

Oliver : For me it is so often hard to say No.

Alana : Yes, my beloved. And this, my friend, is a lesson. Not only for you. You are not my guinea pig, as they say. Although I will caress you now, on the head, with the softness one might use with a small animal such as that. No, you are not my target. I do not abuse you, criticize you. I offer you the same lesson that your beloved group members, Sir David, Susan, Sandy…well, I hesitate before the little one…

Nena : Why?

Alana : You, my beloved, have the courage to speak the truth of your No. But we will not allow the others to feel less than. Yes? We shall include her, too. (laughter) So you see, my friend, Oliver, these lessons are very human. Yes?

Oliver : Totally.

Alana : Were some of your leaders, your world leaders, in the past and in the present, to have said No, the world might look a little bit different now. Equally, were they to have said Yes, the world might look a little bit differently now. No. Yes. To what do we answer? Always, the first question is raised before God to be infused with God’s light and love. It is not that you say No to love. It is not that you say No to receiving love, or No to giving love away, or No to including one, many and all into your love, your love given by God to you to give away. It is that you must be certain that you say Yes, or No, with clarity. No hidden agendas here. And this group is not ready. Were you ready, you would not be struggling so with all the ramifications of recent invitations. Yes? So, what to do.

First, allow me to clear your minds. Legion is here. He will blow love through the skulls of Sir David, Nena, and Sandy. I, once again, hold your beloved head in my hands and shall blow love upon your face, Oliver.

Oliver : Thank you.

Alana : Through your eyes. Through your mouth. And a little puff right through your nose. And Devina fluffs the transmitters brain with her love. Now with such clarity of mind, hopefully, you will now see that I have mentioned nothing about time. Allow this group to continue until each of you recognizes you are ready. Then welcome the inclination to invite. Examine the inclination. When clarity of mind is once again certain, then welcome the presentation of the particular invitation about to be proffered. And then, when clarity of mind has been established, welcome the permission given by each one of you, given by the group, and given by me. With clarity of mind, such as exists right now, I trust each one of you knows this could happen. This could happen right now. Or this could happen in one week, five weeks. But do not doubt, do not fear, you are a working group, you will grow in love and in your ability to receive God’s love, allow God’s love to welcome change within you and welcome God’s will that you give this love away, and share it with others. You will, my friends, minister in your separate ways, and your group will expand.

So, are you ready now, my friend, Sir Oliver, to stand tall, to leave my embrace and join the others who have held the heart room walls for you?

Oliver : Yes, I am.

Alana : Ah so! Now I must let go. Yes? With very tender love for all. And I step aside to allow your beloved, Legion.

Sandy : Alana, you speak with such loving clarity, always, that it is always a lesson for me. Just hearing you speak, I am so grateful. I know that we are all grateful from the bottom of our hearts, for your speech today.

Alana : Thank you.

Legion : And me, be grateful for me, too. Yes? (laughter)

Oliver : Welcome Legion.

David : Welcome.

Sandy : We won’t leave you out, Legion.

Legion : Perhaps not quite so soft, but welcome. Yes? Thank you.

Nena : Thank you.

Legion : The discipline of love, not always so easy. Yes?

Sandy : But worth it.

Nena : But we are making some progress.

Legion : Yes. Steps in the footprints of the Master. Yes? The discipline of love, as you strengthen your bodies, and strengthen your ability to shift and change and shape new patterns in the mind, does not always, immediately, bring to your awareness that the discipline of love is the discipline of joy, as well. This my friend, Sir David, is my first request: that you prepare a study of precisely what you understand to be the discipline of joy.

And so, my beloveds, I would take advantage of your transmitter’s flexibility. I request that we adjourn, and after you have stretched both your bodies and your minds, in conversation with each other, and addressed your addictions, as well, then I request that we return once more, only briefly, that I may speak with you. Thank you.

Sandy : Thank you, Legion.

Oliver : Thank you, Legion.

Intermission. Legion returns.

Legion : And now, you stand tall, yes?

Sandy : Yes.

Closing

Legion : And you feel united, yes? (Several responses of yes.) Do not be afraid. Do not fear speaking truthfully to one another. Do not fear to express doubts, to express fear, to express lack of trust. In the heart room you have created, all these things may be expressed. In your difficulties with each other, your disagreements, your discussions, these are the means by which you practice the heart room, practice the heart room separate from the group meeting when it is Alana who constructs the heart room with you, and it is made more simple by Alana’s presence and mine.

Communication. The discipline of communication. We could make that a sub-set to the discipline of love, which is the discipline of joy.

The discipline of communication. The discipline of the body. Strengthening your ability to carry love. Strengthening your ability to bring love to others. Strengthening your ability to receive love from God into your heart, and then, only then, when fully received within the stillness, in the still-point of your stillness, and then, only then, do you pass it on.

So, you are learning. No matter what you do, you are a representative of this teaching mission. I am here to instruct you, to remind you of the discipline of love, of the disciplines involved in the carrying of the teaching mission, and so I take a certain pride of joy when I see you following my instructions carefully. Practice the stillness. Practice the discipline of the tongue. When you speak the truth to each other, wrap your words with my love and the clarity of thought that Alana so tenderly created in her lessons with you today.

Strengthen your bodies this week. Listen. Listen. Listen. I am there. I will guide you. Your strengthening is to be individual, designed for your body alone, but without your willingness to listen, I can not force. I can not guide. I can not serve you as I would.

So, thank you for gathering together again and allowing Alana and myself to bring you God’s message of love.

Sandy : Thank you, Legion. I don’t think any of us could live without it now.