2003-09-20-Loyalty, Guilt

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Topic: Loyalty, Guilt

Group: N. Colorado TeaM


Teacher: Bob, Rayson

TR: Daniel Raphael



[Session preceded by intentional connection to the merkaba]

BOB: Good morning. This is Bob. (Good morning, Bob.) It has been awhile, so let us take our time to become in-sync with each other. There are many of us here today; and there are others who wish to speak with you, as well. One of you noted that the energy in recent days and weeks seems to have become intense. And we acknowledge that! Many of the discordant, inharmonic activities, thoughts, and feelings that occur within you do not originate from within you, but come from other sources.


We do not wish to strike a chord of fear, however we wish to inform you that just as Caligastia’s crew broadcast discordant energies on many frequencies to the inhabitants of this planet, so too do other mortals on your planet do the same. When we speak of the forces of light, we truly mean the “forces of light!” —that you are forces, meaning a source of power, energy, and when we say “light,” we truly mean “light,” not sunlight, but the light of the Father and the Sons, and Holy Spirit that emanates through you. You maintain yourself as a beacon of light in your consciousness, by your will, by your intention. You monitor it by your self-awareness, consciousness of self.

We have been striving through the Teaching Mission to teach you underlying values and beliefs of stable social existence —the state of being to maintain yourself as a beacon of light. While they are essential for harmony on the social plane and your inter-personal plane, and within your “intra-personal plane,” they are necessary to maintain an aura of light on your planet. Other teachers and Melchizedeks have taught you and told you that they can see you as beacons of light on your planet of darkness, and it is true.

What a joy it is to be here today with you, in this circle of light; it is delightful! You are delightful! I revel in your presence. I take joy in your participation in this feast of good will, joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace of being! Those are real. Those are lasting qualities that endure.

Last time we met, we discussed being safe, feeling safe, and how it must always, and will always, precede trust. Do you have any questions concerning that lesson? (Pause) It is pretty obvious, is it not? When you view the safety of a child, an infant, they are not truly cognizant, aware beings, in the mortal sense, but they do know trust; they do know safety, assurance, nurturance, care. They do not know love yet. Love comes in time. Do you see in your mind’s eye, the young child who toddles about, and who can speak—age 3 or 4 perhaps—who comes up to their father or mother and grabs them around the leg and says, “I love you, Mommy,” “I love you Daddy.” What would cause, what would bring this child to verbalize that? And you know that in this child there is no guile, there is no insincerity, there are no attempts to manipulate, and there is no sarcasm, no condescension, and no arrogance. What are those wonderful values and traits, beliefs, understandings that underlie the child’s statement of love? The child does not even take those for granted—they just simply know that there is patience, tolerance, forbearance, loyalty, truth telling, intimacy and nurturance, care and safety. In the larger schemes of the universe, these mortal worlds are mangers or cribs of tender new souls.

And let us say you are the Creator Son, with the Mother Spirit, creating new mortal beings. How would you bring, not one or two or three individuals, but billions of new souls into that tender state of understanding, acceptance, and certainty knowing that they are loved, cared for, wanted, and needed in the universe? Do not suppose that this is idle speculation, for perhaps in some distant era you may have the opportunity to think about this, in terms of a laboratory, in your Uversa experience.

Such questions do not become a source of conjecture, but of true planning for your universe career. So in these few statements, we have brought you from your mortal position on a world of chaos to a Creator Son, and even to the Creator. Do not forget that this potential within you is existent. It is not ethereal. It is not vaporous—yes, it is tenuous—but it is existent. As Jesus said, and he truly meant this in all ways and all dimensions, that what he is capable of doing, so are you; so am I.

The lessons of other teachers, in other TM groups, and in other groups, which are not called Teaching Mission, have spoken and taught the fundamental lessons of social existence on a world and in the universe, from safety and trust to loyalty, forbearance, tolerance, and all the wonderful values that support the universe. We wish and we ask that you develop teaching materials for your own children, that teach these wonderful traits. And study them, yourselves; hold them in your consciousness.

Today I will touch upon the value of loyalty. Most of you think of loyalty in terms of political loyalty, geographic loyalty, religious loyalty, fraternal and sororal loyalty—loyalty of association with others. Yet at a deeper level, there is the loyalty of yourself to yourself —not selfishly, not egoistically, not self-righteously—but carefully and lovingly, validating yourself, honoring yourself, caring for yourself—consistently—neither diminishing nor denigrating who you are, what you are, nor diminishing your capacity through past actions, thoughts, or words, which are less than you truly are, but which are normal in a growing situation where you were not mature yet.

Your guilt soils your loyalty, does not honor who you are, or adequately or sufficiently receive the forgiveness, which has been given to you. Guilt says that the forgiveness that you were given is not real. It says on a deeper level that you are not in the mindset of your Creator…yet! Loyalty to yourself must come first. Forgiveness of self must come first! Truly, thoroughly, perennially, infinitely —that as you awake each day, you awake to a new day, free of guilt, free of old harmful thoughts that cycle and recycle in your mind. To be able to say in the morning, “That was then; this is now, this is a new day; I am free! I will honor that forgiveness and not repeat the words, the thoughts, the actions that caused guilt in the past.” And you can move ahead freely. And your intention is to do so, to not repeat your errors. Only then! Only then, can you truly, honestly, knowingly—in the deepest sense of knowing—forgive others totally and completely, and hold your relationship loyally as new each day.

So many of your wonderful loving, caring, intimate, personal, social relationships are sullied by harboring thoughts of guilt or resentment. Guilt is about yourself, and resentment is about others. When you forgive others, truly forgive them; do not harbor resentment about what they did or what they said. And if you are unsure of yourself in that, ask your brother or your sister, whom you have forgiven and say, “I have forgiven you; I hold no resentment against you anymore, and if you find that I do, please remind me, for I want to forgive totally, thoroughly, completely as an act of loyalty of my love for you, my association and friendship for you, and ultimately for myself!” Your path to godliness, to becoming not only “like” God but “as” God would act—you must thoroughly, totally forgive and not hold in memory those injuries from others, and must not hold in consciousness, guilt for the injuries you caused others and particularly yourself.

This may be a new spin on loyalty, but it is paramount and pivotal, to your own ascension and the ascension of others. If you think in terms of humble social esteem, meaning that you wish for the positive regard and love of others, how much higher in their esteem will you be if you forgive totally and thoroughly, as Jesus did? You will become brothers, another Mother Theresa, a wonderful saint in living flesh. And it is truly honorable to validate yourself through this means, acquiring the ascendant attributes of a higher self. Loyalty to self is truly a humble action, a humble state of existence. There is not even a “however” about this, for you either honor yourself in this deep humility so that you can honor others with equal, grand humility, or you do not. The individual who feigns this grand humility of loyalty to others, through this grandiose forgiveness as a charade for self-aggrandizement and self-embellishment, is easily seen through. And the truly self-observing individual of higher consciousness sees that in themselves as well. And only the pernicious maintenance of a willful ego will allow that to continue.

This is how your Master Teachers love you, and even I, as a rank and file teacher, love you—I strive to love you that way. It is not easy to achieve; it is a goal that is worthy of all of us on the ascendant path, and it is something we truly must complete and achieve, in order to move ahead. Failure of achieving humble loyalty to self and to others is an impediment that will disallow you from moving ahead. It is not that anyone will hold you back. In the end, when the analysis comes, you will say, “I am not ready.” And your peers and your seniors will [clapping] say —Hooray! —and will congratulate you, and they will acknowledge that you have the resources to achieve those levels.

And now you can see what a formidable task it is that Michael has for himself, for all of us, for you and for this planet. Your political issues, your economic grand finance issues, would be quickly dissolved were the trait, value of loyalty were totally and thoroughly incorporated into consciousness, in all your political and business, social, moral and religious leaders… and their followers. There would be a fair and equitable distribution of wealth, fair and equitable assignment of positions to those who are capable, all without denigrating anyone, holding everyone equally of value, being loyal to each individual, the same as any other.

I am ready for questions.


Student: Boy, I have some! I’ve been wrestling with the nature of forgiveness in my mind a lot in the last few months, and I’m challenged to do as Jesus did, and be able to forgive, even in the face of the rankest injustice while it is happening, but it seems to be beyond my human capacities at this time, and I am also realizing that to continually forgive “deliberate” hurting, is in a manner, giving permission for it to continue. And I’ve read before that forgiveness doesn’t necessarily entail forgetting, and some of the things you said are a little different than that, so I guess I’d just like you to comment on those things and some wisdom so that forgiveness doesn’t become a kind of enabling or an encouragement to continue deliberate antisocial behaviors.

BOB: Certainly. You raised many good points and I wish to address every one of them! On the deepest level, each of you is not complete; each of you are yearning for completion, to become a whole being, not “broken.” And as Jesus saw among all those he lived with, he saw that most of them were broken, and [that] they had a broken nature, and they did broken things. And first of all, at the deepest level, he always forgave each individual their actions from the deepest level, meaning that he forgave [the person], “due to their nature.” They literally could not help themselves. And we know this is true, because his last words reflect of that. Quite literally he said, “If these people knew any better, they wouldn’t do this!” If they knew their own nature, as being so self-destructive, they would not do these things, and so he forgave them.

On the more immediate level, there are the immediate actions, which are secondarily forgiven, meaning, I forgive you these actions because of your nature. They are a reflection of your ignorance. And your third point is, however, I hold you responsible for these actions. You know better, but you choose not to act better, or to say better. You are broken in your thinking; you know better, and you know it is destructive, but you choose not to [act accordingly]. You are responsible for your actions. And if you are the one in authority, you will hold that person responsible, and you will hold them accountable for the immediate or eventual rectification of that wrongdoing, and for the eventual rectification of their thinking, and their behavior. Jesus’ forgiveness, just as your forgiveness, must not ever be misconstrued as enabling, and it must not empower enablement for then you are complicit with the wrongdoing that will come about again. There is error then, in the application of forgiveness.

On another level, Jesus does not ask you to go where he, himself, had challenges. When you are in the face of wrongdoing, you may forgive, but you also may need to leave. There are some wrong doings, the forgiveness of which does not require your presence. Whether it is for your physical, emotional, mental or spiritual safety, as a means of avoiding abuse to you, to your character, it is often times wise to leave. It is not an act of cowardice, it is not a statement of your being un-Christ-like, but it is simply of self-preservation, to come back whole, another time in more thoughtful, centered, grounded, peaceful state, where you can hold the other responsible and accountable, yet while forgiving them.

Yet, going farther, how long do you forgive? Well, you forgive as long as there is potential for rectification by the other, for the amendment of wrong doing of behavior, words, or thinking. If there is no potential for the amendment of behavior by the wrong doer, then your forgiveness, your loyalty is wasted. And that is a far sadder, sadder situation than the recalcitrant, difficult, ornery, cantankerous, child or adult who continues wrong doing, wrong saying, wrong thinking, when they still have the potential to correct that. That is a willfulness, which will trouble them far after you are long gone from their presence, and it will cause them tremendous difficulty in their world. In those ultimate situations, you have the authority to say, “You are no longer welcome here. Return when you can live by my rules. Come to my friendship and our relationship again, when you are ready for it. Until then, you must leave.”

Jesus knew, Michael knows, we all know what a traumatic, difficult, troubled world of relationships you have around you, even in you, on your planet. From the largest macro level of your societies to the intra-personal levels within you, you will never achieve peace in society, until you achieve peace within yourself. This is sacred, hallowed domain within yourself. Do not allow others, your thoughts of them or their words to sully, trample or dirty that ground within you, and do not maintain thoughts that sully, dirty or trample upon your being. In your purest state of essence and being, you are holy (with a small “h,”) the smallest way of exercising that is to become “holy-whole,” to become holistic, one with all parts within yourself, complete. Only then can you be a contributing factor to your world, to your relationships, and to your own progress on your ascendant journey.

Your questions and your statements go to the very heart of mortal existence on your world. And the loyalty of the lesson we were speaking about goes to the heart of maintaining yourself as an integral, whole being. If, when you are apart from others, and you are emotionally at peace, but yet within yourself you are recycling old thoughts, old feelings, you must get rid of them. That is your infantile mind chattering on, and you the adult mind must step into the “boots position” of the will, and will the chattering mind to cease, to stop your mind from reiterating those statements, which make you so small. In this regard, you are totally and fully responsible, for your own, misbehaving child inside yourself. And yes, you know that you are seemingly weak. Then ask to hold the hand of Michael and Nebadonia, to help strengthen your will to overcome your inner recalcitrant child.

And if this is yet insufficient, then you must seek out friends or associations of professionals of like-mindedness who can assist you. It is not a weakness to admit this, to go to those sources. You must become centered within; you must become responsible for your own self. You are accountable for your erroneous thoughts, your erroneous words, and your erroneous behaviors. When you have this state of consciousness, you then are in Christ consciousness. And in this co-creative position, this dyad of wholeness with your Creator, so intimate to you, you will be successful; you truly will be successful!

And for those minds that are so deranged and so broken, that even medication does not help, your transition to the resurrection halls will give you surcease from your dis-ease, and then peace and solace. And, you will find even further recovery in the mansion worlds and in the schools that you will participate in. Caring, loving, supportive, knowing teachers, and angels of many orders will surround you. They will be your hand-holders, your nursemaids, your caregivers, and wisdom-sharers. You will be in remedial classrooms with a whole mind—incomplete, but whole. And you will be loved, cared for, nurtured and held. (We hug too!) [Long pause as TR was emotionally overcome.]

This is Bob, let us close. Thank you.

[Daniel: Oh God, that goes to the core of me!]

Student: It did for a lot of us!

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[About 20 minutes has passed, and the TR has recovered. The group had a good chat about this, (unrecorded,) and the teachers want to have a re-cap.]

Daniel: Let’s come to center and reconnect to the merkaba. Connect to earth center and become grounded. Reconnect to the top of the merkaba, to universe energy, connect our heart lines, and our mind lines.


RAYSON: Good morning, this is Rayson. (Good morning, Rayson.) We have enjoyed your thoughtful comments and reflection upon this very powerful lesson today. It has given you much to think about, within yourselves, and this is where the first lessons of loyalty can be exercised —within yourself. In borrowing upon Bob’s earlier lesson of safety and trust, as you reflect upon the issues of loyalty and forgiveness, what you are doing is creating a safe environment for you to live in, within your own mind. You feel safe with yourself, safe with your own thinking. That may take weeks or months, or perhaps years, before you can trust that your smaller, thinking self will not lead you astray into being unsafe and disloyal to yourself, causing abuse to yourself, disloyalty to yourself.

Trust, then supports love —trust that you can love yourself, and that your loyalty to yourself is well placed, well invested and the dividends are love and more love! Then you can discern other relationships clearly, honestly, safely around you and participate in a way that becomes Christ-like.

Thank you for your loyalty and for being here today and [for being] at each of our meetings. Simply showing up, being on time, and being present are the first fundamental, elementary acts of loyalty, wherever you go. Good day. (Good day.)